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judecorpI couldn't think of anything original to say, really, so I thought I would fill out another survey thinger while I Trillian with Pedro. So I took this from this neat chick, who took it from this goth chick, who took it from someone who's not a chick. It's long. I bare my soul for you. Okay, not really.
I see: My computer screen. Duh.
I need: A private plane and pilot.
I find: Wonders in the littlest things.
I want: To curl up with someone special.
I wish: All of my friends lived in the same town.
I hate: Nothing.
I miss: The Princess
I fear: Failure.
I feel: Sleepy.
I hear: A. doing dishes.
I smell: Dish soap.
I crave: Physical affection.
I search: For truth.
I wonder: What will become of me.
I regret: Giving up my ideals for someone.
When was the last time I ...
Smiled?: At work, when I was talking with Velma.
Laughed?: See above. But the last HUGE laugh was last night, when![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
binkiegirl was singing "Close To You" by The Carpenters in my cat Bree's voice (because "she is the perfect weight"). My god. I about died.
Cried?: With full-out tears falling down? Hrm. In February, when my field liaison told my boss that I didn't want to work there anymore (which wasn't true) and I was sooo angry.
Bought something?: Besides food? I boughtkungfoogirl a cookie bouquet for her birthday.
Danced?: 8 September, at Batcave
Were sarcastic?: Me? Sarcastic? NEVER.
Kissed someone?: The other weekend.
Talked to an ex?:zelazny commented in my LJ. Does that count? Oh, wait, I talked to A. tonight. I said, "What are you watching?"
Watched your favorite movie?: A few months back.
Had a nightmare?: The last big one was the one I posted about, with the cutting. Though the dream I related toennuiennui, that I had Tuesday night, was a little more nightmarish than I let on.
What was the ...
Last book you read?: The Little Prince (Thanks, Christina!)
Last movie you saw?: Hearts in Atlantis
Last thing you had to drink?: Ginger ale.
Last time you showered?: This morning.
Last thing you ate?: Swedish fish.
Do you...
Smoke?: Have never tried. Not interested.
Do drugs?: Haven't in YEARS.
Have sex?: Not recently enough.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: They're on the bed, but I sleep with the Pillow of Angsty Love.
Live in the moment?: When the moment is good. :)
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: No. I have me. Yar! And a Princess and a Ninja who are very special.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: I have a number of recurring dream themes I've had since childhood.
Play an instrument?: I took a music class in college where we played recorders.
Remember your first love?: Yes. Don Barbrie. December 1992.
Still love him/her?: In that way I love people I care about, sure.
Read the newspaper?: I get the paper on weekends, but I haven't had time to read them in months.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?:mythicalbeast once asked me if I had any straight friends. (I do. Honest!)
Believe in miracles?: Not really, no. I don't know. 'Miracle' is kind of a Christian term.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes. Especially if you know yourself enough to know what you can be faithful to.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: More than most.
Consider love a mistake?: No. Never.
Like the taste of alcohol?: Most. Not Amaretto. Makes me puke. And Jager. Yuck!
Have a favorite candy?: Swedish fish.
Believe in astrology?: Sort of.
Believe in magic?: Yes. Absolutely.
Pray?: In my own way.
Go to church?: On and off.
Have any secrets?: I used to have a few. I don't now. Princess knows them.
Have any pets?: Three kitties. Mmm.
Go to or been to college?: College? Check. Grad school? Check. Doing it again? Yep.
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: No.
Wear hats?: Of course. Ball caps. Especially the Hello Kitty one.
Have any piercings?: 9 ear holes, one eyebrow hole, one tongue hole, one ex-nose hole, one ex-nipple hole.
Have any tattoos?: Nope. Not yet.
Hate yourself?: Not since I was younger.
Have an obsession?: You are an obsession. You're my obsession. Who do you want me to be, to make you sleep with me.
Collect anything?: Smurfs, 80s pop culture junk, broken hearts. (Okay, not really)
Have a best friend?: Mark and Jodie and Guy. All in different ways.
Wish on stars?: Every now and then.
Like your handwriting?: Yes. It rocks.
Have any bad habits?: SO many. I'm so exasperating. I bite my nails. I bite the skin around my nails. I pull hangnails. I bite the insides of my cheeks. I twirl my hair. I interrupt. I'm self-righteous. I use the phone too much. I'm touchyfeely when I drink. I'm a neat freak. Etc.
Care about looks?: Absolutely.
Believe in witches?: In that Halloweeen candy way? Nah. There are people who identify as witches. I respect some of them. Some of them scare me.
Believe in ghosts?: Kinda sorta.
I see: My computer screen. Duh.
I need: A private plane and pilot.
I find: Wonders in the littlest things.
I want: To curl up with someone special.
I wish: All of my friends lived in the same town.
I hate: Nothing.
I miss: The Princess
I fear: Failure.
I feel: Sleepy.
I hear: A. doing dishes.
I smell: Dish soap.
I crave: Physical affection.
I search: For truth.
I wonder: What will become of me.
I regret: Giving up my ideals for someone.
When was the last time I ...
Smiled?: At work, when I was talking with Velma.
Laughed?: See above. But the last HUGE laugh was last night, when
binkiegirl was singing "Close To You" by The Carpenters in my cat Bree's voice (because "she is the perfect weight"). My god. I about died.Cried?: With full-out tears falling down? Hrm. In February, when my field liaison told my boss that I didn't want to work there anymore (which wasn't true) and I was sooo angry.
Bought something?: Besides food? I bought
kungfoogirl a cookie bouquet for her birthday.Danced?: 8 September, at Batcave
Were sarcastic?: Me? Sarcastic? NEVER.
Kissed someone?: The other weekend.
Talked to an ex?:
zelazny commented in my LJ. Does that count? Oh, wait, I talked to A. tonight. I said, "What are you watching?"Watched your favorite movie?: A few months back.
Had a nightmare?: The last big one was the one I posted about, with the cutting. Though the dream I related to
ennuiennui, that I had Tuesday night, was a little more nightmarish than I let on.What was the ...
Last book you read?: The Little Prince (Thanks, Christina!)
Last movie you saw?: Hearts in Atlantis
Last thing you had to drink?: Ginger ale.
Last time you showered?: This morning.
Last thing you ate?: Swedish fish.
Do you...
Smoke?: Have never tried. Not interested.
Do drugs?: Haven't in YEARS.
Have sex?: Not recently enough.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: They're on the bed, but I sleep with the Pillow of Angsty Love.
Live in the moment?: When the moment is good. :)
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: No. I have me. Yar! And a Princess and a Ninja who are very special.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: I have a number of recurring dream themes I've had since childhood.
Play an instrument?: I took a music class in college where we played recorders.
Remember your first love?: Yes. Don Barbrie. December 1992.
Still love him/her?: In that way I love people I care about, sure.
Read the newspaper?: I get the paper on weekends, but I haven't had time to read them in months.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?:
mythicalbeast once asked me if I had any straight friends. (I do. Honest!)Believe in miracles?: Not really, no. I don't know. 'Miracle' is kind of a Christian term.
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes. Especially if you know yourself enough to know what you can be faithful to.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: More than most.
Consider love a mistake?: No. Never.
Like the taste of alcohol?: Most. Not Amaretto. Makes me puke. And Jager. Yuck!
Have a favorite candy?: Swedish fish.
Believe in astrology?: Sort of.
Believe in magic?: Yes. Absolutely.
Pray?: In my own way.
Go to church?: On and off.
Have any secrets?: I used to have a few. I don't now. Princess knows them.
Have any pets?: Three kitties. Mmm.
Go to or been to college?: College? Check. Grad school? Check. Doing it again? Yep.
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: No.
Wear hats?: Of course. Ball caps. Especially the Hello Kitty one.
Have any piercings?: 9 ear holes, one eyebrow hole, one tongue hole, one ex-nose hole, one ex-nipple hole.
Have any tattoos?: Nope. Not yet.
Hate yourself?: Not since I was younger.
Have an obsession?: You are an obsession. You're my obsession. Who do you want me to be, to make you sleep with me.
Collect anything?: Smurfs, 80s pop culture junk, broken hearts. (Okay, not really)
Have a best friend?: Mark and Jodie and Guy. All in different ways.
Wish on stars?: Every now and then.
Like your handwriting?: Yes. It rocks.
Have any bad habits?: SO many. I'm so exasperating. I bite my nails. I bite the skin around my nails. I pull hangnails. I bite the insides of my cheeks. I twirl my hair. I interrupt. I'm self-righteous. I use the phone too much. I'm touchyfeely when I drink. I'm a neat freak. Etc.
Care about looks?: Absolutely.
Believe in witches?: In that Halloweeen candy way? Nah. There are people who identify as witches. I respect some of them. Some of them scare me.
Believe in ghosts?: Kinda sorta.
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I'm ashamed to ask...
Date: 2001-10-11 07:20 pm (UTC)Re: I'm ashamed to ask...
Date: 2001-10-11 07:24 pm (UTC)Re: I'm ashamed to ask...
Date: 2001-10-11 07:32 pm (UTC)My life is more complete now. I guess it's the same stuff that's in swedish berries, which are wonderful, but would now kill me due to the evils of red food dye.
Evils of red food dye?
Date: 2001-10-12 05:57 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2001-10-11 07:23 pm (UTC)Rockapella
Date: 2001-10-11 07:25 pm (UTC)Well she snakes around the world from Kiev to Carolina,
She's a sticky fingered filcher from Berlin down to Belize.
She'll take you for a ride on a slow boat to China
Re: Rockapella
Date: 2001-10-12 12:55 am (UTC)Re: Rockapella
Date: 2001-10-12 06:00 am (UTC)Pye-rats
Date: 2001-10-12 06:05 am (UTC)Re: Pye-rats
Date: 2001-10-12 06:07 am (UTC)Re: Pye-rats
Date: 2001-10-12 07:02 am (UTC)Re: Pye-rats
Date: 2001-10-12 08:03 am (UTC)Checking
Date: 2001-10-12 08:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2001-10-12 12:55 am (UTC)Crying, and the Knight
Date: 2001-10-12 06:06 am (UTC)I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
That is so me. I tell people about the divorce and "the associated foo" and they say things like, "Oh, that must be really hard," (you know, those things people say)... and I laugh it off, do the sarcastic thing, shrug my shoulders. "It's okay." "Things move forward." "He's probably doing me a favor." "I like a challenge." "Scars are sexy." Etc. Thing is, I believe all of these things, but I wish just once I could sit down and cry about it. Maybe then my family wouldn't think I was heartless, or evil, or whatever.
I dunno. Crying was rewarded in my childhood with more anger and harsher consequences. And I wouldn't want A. to have the satisfaction, or something. Lies. I wish I /could/ cry.
Swedish fish hugs
Date: 2001-10-13 10:10 am (UTC)*grins*
You said I was Neat. *does the happy dance*
I'm neat...
Wow.
From someone who rocks so much, this is good.
The swedish fish hugs are for crying. It is hard. I got screamed at by my superintendant this week, and I didn't cry all day. I still haven't cried. I'm usually one to do so at the drop of a hat, and..well..I haven't. Wish I could to get rid of the experience.
Oh well.
We love you!!
*happy dances again* I'm neat!
Re: Swedish fish hugs
Date: 2001-10-13 04:29 pm (UTC)And thanks for the fish hugs. Anything swedish fish is good in my book. Boo for your superintendent. Boo boo boo. Do you need me to kick someone's ass? :)
Neat.