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judecorpI think I'll probably start lj-cutting all of the baby-making stuff because I'm willing to bet there are people who absolutely don't want to see a million posts about charting and cervical fluid or whatever. I'm not great with consistently using filters, and besides, filters make things friends-only and I don't like that. So... skip the cuts if you don't want to see. :)
I've tried charting my cycles twice before in my life, with disheartening results both times. The first time, pre-Metformin, I hadn't had a period in years. I was in Columbus, was getting ready to move into my adorable apartment on Buttles, and randomly started my period on moving day. My first period in /years/, and OMG it was the worst thing ever. But whatever, I thought I would chart. And I started. And got to Day 100 with no end in sight, got frustrated, stopped.
The second time was last year. Thanks to Metformin, I'd managed to start a cycle in March, and here it was, about 6-7 weeks later, and I was starting another. Score - I thought this was going to be it, the time I saw... something. Beginning of May, I start on Day 1, get going, get going... Dad dies at the end of May, life turns upside-down, I think I stopped right about then because things were nuts. I'm glad, though... I actually didn't start another cycle until October (although I had one random day of bleeding in July) so that would have been a crazy-long chart.
So here it is, Third Time's a Charm and all of that. And I won't lie, I'm totally deluding myself with all of this crazy optimism. I've got myself /totally/ convinced that I'm going to see a temp shift, I'm going to have reliable EWCM, it's going to look like one of those charts for all of those women who have working bodies! I know I'm totally setting myself up here, but I can't help it.
I have this dream that I go to the doctor next Friday for my bloodwork follow-up and am able to bring my chart and show that I ovulated, that doubling the Metformin has straightened me all out and he's totally optimistic that we can be as minimally-invasive as possible. In my dream, he's totally pleased, I'm totally pleased, and we can just move forward and life is grand. As if it's ever that easy.
Ugh. I know it's also because I'm not a huge fan of medications and I'd /really/ like to be able to ovulate without Clomid. I don't really want to increase my chances of ovarian cancer and I really just don't like having a lot of drugs in my system. Yuck.
Maybe my silly optimistic dream will come true.
Of course, I also have this weird dream where 2006 is going to be this dynamite year of change - new town, new house, new job for Jen, baby on the way. Right now, I can't really bear to imagine that these things might be, you know, difficult or less than smooth.
I've tried charting my cycles twice before in my life, with disheartening results both times. The first time, pre-Metformin, I hadn't had a period in years. I was in Columbus, was getting ready to move into my adorable apartment on Buttles, and randomly started my period on moving day. My first period in /years/, and OMG it was the worst thing ever. But whatever, I thought I would chart. And I started. And got to Day 100 with no end in sight, got frustrated, stopped.
The second time was last year. Thanks to Metformin, I'd managed to start a cycle in March, and here it was, about 6-7 weeks later, and I was starting another. Score - I thought this was going to be it, the time I saw... something. Beginning of May, I start on Day 1, get going, get going... Dad dies at the end of May, life turns upside-down, I think I stopped right about then because things were nuts. I'm glad, though... I actually didn't start another cycle until October (although I had one random day of bleeding in July) so that would have been a crazy-long chart.
So here it is, Third Time's a Charm and all of that. And I won't lie, I'm totally deluding myself with all of this crazy optimism. I've got myself /totally/ convinced that I'm going to see a temp shift, I'm going to have reliable EWCM, it's going to look like one of those charts for all of those women who have working bodies! I know I'm totally setting myself up here, but I can't help it.
I have this dream that I go to the doctor next Friday for my bloodwork follow-up and am able to bring my chart and show that I ovulated, that doubling the Metformin has straightened me all out and he's totally optimistic that we can be as minimally-invasive as possible. In my dream, he's totally pleased, I'm totally pleased, and we can just move forward and life is grand. As if it's ever that easy.
Ugh. I know it's also because I'm not a huge fan of medications and I'd /really/ like to be able to ovulate without Clomid. I don't really want to increase my chances of ovarian cancer and I really just don't like having a lot of drugs in my system. Yuck.
Maybe my silly optimistic dream will come true.
Of course, I also have this weird dream where 2006 is going to be this dynamite year of change - new town, new house, new job for Jen, baby on the way. Right now, I can't really bear to imagine that these things might be, you know, difficult or less than smooth.
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Date: 2006-02-26 08:43 pm (UTC)i'm here and fascinated by all of this if you ever want anyone to talk to/gush at about it :)
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Date: 2006-02-27 02:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-27 05:32 am (UTC)Baby Wanting.
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Date: 2006-03-01 02:05 am (UTC)Mama Jude. Yeah I like the sound of that..,..
Date: 2006-02-26 09:03 pm (UTC)come post at MUFF!
(you have to introduce yourself first)
xoxox!!!!!
Re: Mama Jude. Yeah I like the sound of that..,..
Date: 2006-02-27 02:44 am (UTC)I forgot all about MUFF. I have so little time for internets, usually.
Whee!
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Date: 2006-02-26 09:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-02-27 02:42 am (UTC)Here are a couple of web pages about it:
http://www.ivf1.com/clomid-cancer/
http://www.ivf.com/ovca.html
xo!
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Date: 2006-02-27 05:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-01 02:05 am (UTC)No EWCM yet. Dang.