It's hari kari, Mom.
Mar. 6th, 2006 09:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpLong day. I meant to come home after work and eat food in the house like a good girl, but after a pretty ridiculous assessment that ended at 6:15pm, I needed to decompress with Coworker Funk... and that meant dinner. So I ordered the cheapest thing on the menu and am not going to stress about it. I just wish money was free. Or that I had more of it.
The thing is, I'm lucky. I have a decent chunk of savings, especially for someone who is a social worker and doesn't make a big salary. I've been saving this money since I graduated from college, most of it, and I always thought I would use it to buy a house. But now we're going to use some of it for babymaking instead. It's kind of weird to wrap my head around, because I always just thought I would use that money for a house. And whenever I have to spend any significant amount of money, I get kind of freaked. We paid off the car last month and I'm glad Jen wrote the big check because, hello, anxious.
I know it's only money and I know that we will always make do. We're survivors. I just /really/ like to be safe, to have a cushion, to have options. And I'm psyched that we DO have options, now that we actually want to use some of it... but still. It's weird.
So yeah, I just finished telling myself that we needed to cut all kinds of extraneous spending for now, and then promptly went out to dinner. Wahoo. Go me!
p.s. It was so worth it. If I hadn't had that chat with Coworker Funk, I probably would have committed hare krishna on my job.
The thing is, I'm lucky. I have a decent chunk of savings, especially for someone who is a social worker and doesn't make a big salary. I've been saving this money since I graduated from college, most of it, and I always thought I would use it to buy a house. But now we're going to use some of it for babymaking instead. It's kind of weird to wrap my head around, because I always just thought I would use that money for a house. And whenever I have to spend any significant amount of money, I get kind of freaked. We paid off the car last month and I'm glad Jen wrote the big check because, hello, anxious.
I know it's only money and I know that we will always make do. We're survivors. I just /really/ like to be safe, to have a cushion, to have options. And I'm psyched that we DO have options, now that we actually want to use some of it... but still. It's weird.
So yeah, I just finished telling myself that we needed to cut all kinds of extraneous spending for now, and then promptly went out to dinner. Wahoo. Go me!
p.s. It was so worth it. If I hadn't had that chat with Coworker Funk, I probably would have committed hare krishna on my job.
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Date: 2006-03-07 02:41 am (UTC)you should buy this book.
you should also come on aim more often. i'm learning oodles of things about lesbians, fertility, and babymaking. and i want to talk about it!!!
i got to feel my friend liza's baby kick last night!!!!!! it was the most amazing thing ever.
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Date: 2006-03-07 03:18 am (UTC)Dude, I never AIM. But maybe I will come on now JUST FOR YOU.
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Date: 2006-03-07 02:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-07 02:47 am (UTC)"That's EXACTLY what I said."
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Date: 2006-03-07 03:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-07 03:23 am (UTC)and i love you too! ;)
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Date: 2006-03-08 12:44 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-07 05:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-03-08 12:45 am (UTC)Spending savings makes me so nervous.