And in return, she'll get my support

[judecorp]

It's exciting to go on vacation, but always so stressful getting READY to go on vacation. It seems so counterproductive. Like, you're excited and you can't wait but there is SO MUCH TO DO. Right now we have some laundry going and there's no way it will all be done tonight, so that means we'll finish it up tomorrow. And watch Survivor. And pack. And give the house key to Coworker Gina. I always have a hard time packing because I want to bring /everything/. Oops.

Someone made me a surreal offer today and I have no idea what to THINK about it, let alone what to do. Good thing there's always time.

I just realized that we have to be at the airport by like 5am on Friday and I'm not sure how getting ready for that is going to fit in with my fertility monitor stuff. I mean, I can toss out the temp for the day but I have to POAS (pee on a stick) within a certain window and it's supposed to be first pee of the day. Bleh. Travel drama.

I'm excited to go on vacation but this whole trip was such Bad Timing. What was I /thinking/??!!?!?

p.s. This song always makes me a little weepy, but tonight it made me think of Mark Palmer and I just want to lose it. What if something ever happens to Jen? What the hell would I do?

Comments

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

With respects to your ps, I know exactly how you feel. An old friend died last year and I couldn't help but put myself in his wife's shoes. *hug*

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I like to pretend that everything is guaranteed, you know? Like that things just work out and you just have long lives together. But heck, being young, or being healthy, or having children doesn't guarantee you ANYTHING. And that is so hard for me to deal with.

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know what you mean. It doesn't.

So we just have to treasure what we have in the here and now, expect the best, and try not to worry too hard about what might be, because we don't know what will happen next.

I know. Easier said than done! I'll let you know if I ever figure out how to actually do that. :-)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh good. I'm looking forward to it!

I'm not really a fatalist or whatever, I'm not one of those people who goes berzerk about this conspirancy or that pandemic or whatever. I keep that stuff really removed from me. But then sometimes little things make these losses hit home, and it just is so counter to everything I want to be and feel...

Dead at 26. Dead at 30. Younger than me. That can be US, you know? Yikes.