End of the week

[judecorp]

Thank goodness this week is over. It has just been too eventful and too heavy for me. Today when I was driving around, I just felt like I was carrying around too much weight and baggage and heaviness. I felt pinned to my seat and it was just so overwhelmingly sad, even though nothing bad happened today. I think I just capped out.

Some of the action was good, some not so good... I'm just not used to that kind of action. I got quite behind on LJ and comments and e-mails and I'd actually been really good about that stuff for a little while. Oddly enough, that was stressful, too - wanting more time to just decompress and goof on the internet, but not really having the time/energy.

Having the worst week ever at the same time as having a house guest is probably not the best scenario. I adore Coworker Funk but after a while it just become one more thing to stress over - coordinating showers and mealtimes and all of that. Hopefully she had an enjoyable time and wasn't too put out by my mid-week crankiness.

Today is the last day of Clomid and I am quite excited for that. Last cycle I didn't really have many emotional side effects from it (a little weepiness with cheesy songs), but with the events of this week I found that I hit that "overwhelmed" line a lot sooner than I usually do. Although it's not terribly common that I have Clomid, a house guest, sleep deprivation from a kitten running all over me since we couldn't lock him in the guest room, far too many hours at work for one week, AF visiting Jen, hugely painful relationship discussion, a house fire, and Big Deal Drama (of the major, major kind) with one of my families all at the same time. It was just too much.

I am so thankful for the weekend. I don't even care if I will spend the whole time cleaning and running errands, I really don't. It's just the end of the week and the end of Clomid and hopefully the beginning of a little peace. And Stick It!, which I am terribly excited to see tomorrow. :)

Cup of Wonder - Jethro Tull

May I make my fond excuses for the lateness of the hour,
but we accept your invitation, and we bring you Beltane's flower.
For the May Day is the great day, sung along the old straight track.
And those who ancient lines did lay will heed the song that calls them back.

Pass the word and pass the lady, pass the plate to all who hunger.
Pass the wit of ancient wisdom, pass the cup of crimson wonder.

Ask the green man where he comes from, ask the cup that fills with red.
Ask the old grey standing stones that show the sun its way to bed.
Question all as to their ways, and learn the secrets that they hold.
Walk the lines of nature's palm crossed with silver and with gold.

Pass the cup and pass the lady, pass the plate to all who hunger.
Pass the wit of ancient wisdom, pass the cup of crimson wonder.

Join in black December's sadness, lie in August's welcome corn.
Stir the cup that's ever-filling with the blood of all that's born.
But the May Day is the great day, sung along the old straight track.
And those who ancient lines did lay will heed this song that calls them back.

Pass the word and pass the lady, pass the plate to all who hunger.
Pass the wit of ancient wisdom, pass the cup of crimson wonder.

Comments

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

If it makes you feel any better I've had a terribly shitty week filled with hormones and worries of the upcoming pregnancy test. ACK.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

It's so hard not to stress and worry, isn't it? Especially when everyone just tells you to relax!

I am vibing you hardcore with all of this pregnancy test business. When do you go for your beta?

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

If one more person tells me to relax I'm going to throttle them with my 2 inch PIO needle - multiple times!
I'm going to POAS tomorrow AM (probably) and then we have our beta on Sunday. I'm so scared...
Thank you for the good vibes. :)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you big time!

[quinniepants.livejournal.com]

jeez, you guys should relax!!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Frankie says RELAX.

[quinniepants.livejournal.com]

omg, we both posted songs on our ljs. it's fate! and here's to a better next week.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I think it's because we're both poseur emo motherf*ckers!

[afullmoon.livejournal.com]

What I noticed when trying to concieve that the first try went so well in the sense it was new and the excitement was there. By the second try it was emotionally draining. On the third try I was swearing I wasn't going to try again if I got a negative. The process is draining and so emotional. I swear I had never fought so much with my girlfriend during that time. Plus you have clomid which I hear is awful. So hang in there. I hope it gets better.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You are so right. We had so much hope and so much idealism the first time around - like we were going to have some sort of magical beginners luck that no one else gets... or because once we finally got sperm in the right place it just HAD to work. Now we're in full "here we go again" mode and I can definitely see how the "fun" of it all begins to dwindle away. Now we're just on a mission! ;)

But if you got your BFP then I totally can, too. :)