And I apologize for my long-winded reply that I knew was going to come out harsher than the words were in my head... compacted by the fact that I had just nearly fainted and apparently looked so scarybad that Jen was freaking out. (Oops.)
But I will tell you with confidence that the infertility process takes a whole lot of the fun out of things. It's difficult enough to navigate donor sperm and all of that crap without adding on a faulty body.
And I /do/ try not to stress, and try to relax, but sometimes that's damn near impossible. I got so little sleep last night because of that shot mishap and the resulting soreness (ouch!) but thought that I could finally be at ease when I checked my monitor in the morning and saw my little Peak fertility that indicated that the shot stuff was in there. And I tested this morning. And my monitor did not read Peak. So now a call to the doctor is mandated because, well, I'm not going to waste $300 worth of sperm for an IUI tomorrow if I'm not even going to be ovulating.
This cycle is neverending mishaps. One way or another, I'll be glad when it's over (hopefully with baby, but if not, you know, I'll be glad for the fresh start.)
p.s. You are great and I love your outlook on things. And I /do/ appreciate your trying to help by trying to remind me to sit back and enjoy the flowers. It's hard sometimes, and I don't mind the reminders.
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Date: 2006-05-08 12:19 pm (UTC)But I will tell you with confidence that the infertility process takes a whole lot of the fun out of things. It's difficult enough to navigate donor sperm and all of that crap without adding on a faulty body.
And I /do/ try not to stress, and try to relax, but sometimes that's damn near impossible. I got so little sleep last night because of that shot mishap and the resulting soreness (ouch!) but thought that I could finally be at ease when I checked my monitor in the morning and saw my little Peak fertility that indicated that the shot stuff was in there. And I tested this morning. And my monitor did not read Peak. So now a call to the doctor is mandated because, well, I'm not going to waste $300 worth of sperm for an IUI tomorrow if I'm not even going to be ovulating.
This cycle is neverending mishaps. One way or another, I'll be glad when it's over (hopefully with baby, but if not, you know, I'll be glad for the fresh start.)
p.s. You are great and I love your outlook on things. And I /do/ appreciate your trying to help by trying to remind me to sit back and enjoy the flowers. It's hard sometimes, and I don't mind the reminders.
...as long as I'm not nearly fainting. :)