Never say it can't get any worse
Jun. 7th, 2006 07:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpI really should never tell myself that things can't get any worse. Because of course they can, and if you have my luck (or bad karma, can't really decide which), they probably will.
I went in for another ultrasound and bloodwork this morning to see how things are progressing. When I went in on Monday (CD12), I had two 12mm follicles on the left side and one just measurable (maybe 10mm?) on the right. My estrogen was 60. (To have a mature follicle, you usually need 150-200.) This morning the ultrasound tech didn't want to give me info, which is never a good sign. (Usually she tells me right when I'm hopping off the table.) She said that I had one follicle on the right that might be about 13mm. When I asked, "What happened to the ones on the left?" she said, "They're there, but they aren't growing." My estrogen was 69.
The nurse called me with the info this afternoon and said she wanted me to come in for another ultrasound and bloodwork on Friday (CD16), but she wanted to give me a 'heads up' that this cycle will probably be cancelled due to poor response.
I don't even know what to do or think. It's one thing to not be able to get pregnant but it's another thing entirely to not be able to grow mature follicles. It never occured to me that we might not be able to inseminate this cycle, only that it might be later than I'd hoped. We're already out next cycle because I had to schedule an appointment with the RE before we could proceed (to discuss more aggressive treatments) and I won't see him in time to start the next round.
I don't even know if I should go in on Friday just to be devastated. I don't know if I should continue TTC. It seems pretty hopeless for me, if I can't even ovulate with ovulation-inducing medication.
I'm just so frustrated because I had a poor response last cycle, too, and I spoke to the nurse about it before starting this cycle and she said it was fine, that they didn't think they should change anything or increase the dosage or anything, and now I feel like I blew my chance... not to mention wasted a ton of money on sperm for this cycle that's not going to get used.
I wonder what will go wrong tomorrow.
I went in for another ultrasound and bloodwork this morning to see how things are progressing. When I went in on Monday (CD12), I had two 12mm follicles on the left side and one just measurable (maybe 10mm?) on the right. My estrogen was 60. (To have a mature follicle, you usually need 150-200.) This morning the ultrasound tech didn't want to give me info, which is never a good sign. (Usually she tells me right when I'm hopping off the table.) She said that I had one follicle on the right that might be about 13mm. When I asked, "What happened to the ones on the left?" she said, "They're there, but they aren't growing." My estrogen was 69.
The nurse called me with the info this afternoon and said she wanted me to come in for another ultrasound and bloodwork on Friday (CD16), but she wanted to give me a 'heads up' that this cycle will probably be cancelled due to poor response.
I don't even know what to do or think. It's one thing to not be able to get pregnant but it's another thing entirely to not be able to grow mature follicles. It never occured to me that we might not be able to inseminate this cycle, only that it might be later than I'd hoped. We're already out next cycle because I had to schedule an appointment with the RE before we could proceed (to discuss more aggressive treatments) and I won't see him in time to start the next round.
I don't even know if I should go in on Friday just to be devastated. I don't know if I should continue TTC. It seems pretty hopeless for me, if I can't even ovulate with ovulation-inducing medication.
I'm just so frustrated because I had a poor response last cycle, too, and I spoke to the nurse about it before starting this cycle and she said it was fine, that they didn't think they should change anything or increase the dosage or anything, and now I feel like I blew my chance... not to mention wasted a ton of money on sperm for this cycle that's not going to get used.
I wonder what will go wrong tomorrow.
