Mexican Food Coma

[judecorp]

I had the HSG this afternoon and it was not pleasant, not by a long shot, but it was better than I had expected. (So I guess that's good.) The thing that sucks is that I didn't really get a definitive answer about how it went. The uterus was very visible and there were tons of dye shooting out of my right tube, but they couldn't get a good look at my left tube. They kept putting in more and more and more dye (I think she reloaded three times!) and it took longer than the promised 5 minutes. The doctor (who was supervising?) and the nurse practitioner (who did the procedure) spent a lot of time talking, like, "Do you think you see a spill? I think there might be a spill there? Should I try more dye? Should we try moving?" and they took the pictures anyway even though you can't see the left side at all. When I was leaving, the NP said that she 'was sure everything was fine' and that 'maybe there was a bone in the way of the spilling' on the left or whatever. But I'm not sure. She said I will hear one way or the other from the doctor but with my luck he will look at the inconclusive pictures and say, "Go get another one." And then I will punch him in the face.

I wonder if they are convinced that I don't have a blockage (even though they didn't see a confirmed spill) because I wasn't writhing around the table. I hear that blockages make things /really/ painful. So maybe that's why she said she thinks I'm fine? I didn't actually have any pain until they finished, then the cramps came hardcore. At least it wasn't when I was getting all injected up the hoo-hah. I am just paranoid about the whole left tube thing. I will say one thing, though - the NP was incredibly nice to me. I told her before the procedure that I really wasn't jazzed about any hoo-hah business and she was really sensitive about it. So at least not EVERYONE from my doctor's office is a douchebag.

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I found out that while I was on vacation, one of the kids in my playgroup accidentally punched the dad of another kid in my playgroup in the junk. (He was playing rough and I guess got carried away.) It was the dad of one of the new kids... I wasn't surprised to hear this morning that they won't be coming back. Funny.

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I wasn't going to eat out tonight at all, but Coworker Funk was in the office late with me and was whining about how hungry she was, so we went out for Mexican. I ate far too much food (the chips/salsa are the death of me) and also had a glass of sangria which has totally done me in. I want to sleep for a million years. I don't know why I decided to drink, and it probably wasn't very smart of me. I didn't take my Metformin this morning because of the contrast dye thing, but I doubt it's good to have contrast dye and then drink. Whoops.

Jen's at her art class tonight and I am trying very hard to resist hurt feelings. Having that procedure this afternoon was just really crappy, and the vague results (and not the definite positive/negative I was expecting) make everything hard to deal with. It would have been really nice if she had decided to come home instead and make me feel better, and I would be a liar if I said I wasn't disappointed. Sometimes looking to someone else for comfort really sucks. When you're alone, you don't expect other people to do anything for you - and there's never any disappointment.

Comments

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

I wish I could be there with you to give you a hug. You've been through a lot today. Let me know what you find out about your left side. I'm glad you took 4 advil. Can you imagine if you had just taken 2? I wanted someone to shoot me when mine was over with.
I'm thinking of you ... :) *hugs from tx to ma*

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it seemed weird to be taking 4 advil when I wasn't in any pain, but I'm guessing it probably helped to take the edge off. But I almost NEVER take ibuprofen, and when I do it's usually 1, sometimes 2 but not often. So it was so weird to take 4, ESPECIALLY when I was feeling fine at the time. So weird.

I wish you could give me a hug, too. That would be totally awesome. I think I am going to go to bed and sleep off all of this mexican food and sangria. (I /love/ sangria.)

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

Good night. Sleep well! Tomorrow is a new day.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

No, for this they do not do shots in the hoo-hah - they insert a catheter into the hoo-hah and through the cervix into the uterus and then push the dye through. (It's fairly similar to how I get inseminated, they do that through the cervix and into the uterus, too.) Ugh, shots in the hoo-hah, I WOULD REFUSE.

I took one vicodin once. In my life. And I threw up, and decided I did not need to ever take such things again. I've never taken any pain medication stronger than 4 ibuprofens. Then again, I don't really plan to have needles dug into my elbow ditch, either. :)

[(Anonymous)]

Sounds like the HSG went well - in that at least you know one tube is open. It is a sucky procedure to go through alone though.

[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

Oops that was me being anonymous and not meaning to be! Forgot to log in.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

No problem. I answered your anonymous comment, btw. :)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was good to see at least one tube with good things going on. I'm just worried that my doctor will decide that my other tube is blocked and lower the number of IUIs he will let me try. We don't want to do IVF.

[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

Wow they could limit the number of IUI's based on a blocked tube!? You'd think they'd increase the number of IUI's.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, I don't know how it works up north, but here in the US the doctors seem to be all about the numbers - and by numbers, I mean their success rate. IUIs, even under ideal circumstances with injectibles, have a success rate of about 20% per IUI. IVF's success rate is much closer to 50%. It is in a doctor's best interest to move to things with higher success rates because then their clinic is, well, more successful.

My doctor has already started talking to us about "if we need to go to more high-tech options" even though we told him from the get-go that we didn't want to do that. I suppose he thinks he's just trying to prepare us, but how it gets to me is that he is going to push us in that direction prematurely. *shrug* I don't know.

We've already done 2 unsuccessful IUIs and had one cancelled cycle. We can probably do 3 tries with injectibles (as long as he doesn't say it won't work because of blocked tubes) but if we weren't successful by then, I'm about 99% sure he would say our next step is IVF. Which means at that point we'd be done.

[changinglight.livejournal.com]

((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[aminahfiddler.livejournal.com]

Oh my... If they had to shoot me with more dye I think I would have died. They couldn't get done fast enough for me. I hope you get a good answer from your doctor about the left tube. I'm glad at least the NP was nice. My doctor did mine so that was way cool. The nurse that helped/took the x-ray was way cool too. I think that was all they did in this one room.

Sleep is always good for a bad day. Hugs from NC!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hugs. I hope I hear from my doctor soon about all of this tube business. I am not a patient person, and imagining all of the worst-case scenarios is giving me a headache! :)

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

(((hugs)))

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

HUG

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I don't begrudge the art class, although it IS difficult to have her have another commitment in the evening when she already misses 2-3 nights/week with me for work and another night/week for an appointment. So now with the art class, we're at 4-5 nights/week plus one weekend day that we don't see each other. I really don't see her much at all.

I do kind of wish, though, that someone would have been home with me that night to just sort of coddle me a little bit after all of that and process the vague and potentially not-good results. While we're more than just a babymaking team, we ARE still a team on the babymaking front and this was a babymaking procedure... so I dunno where I totally stand on the "support Jen being her own person" camp this time. But I value your sexy opinion! ;)

p.s. There is NO way you could beat me in a chips-and-salsa extravaganza, because I am the CHAMP!