Long week already

[judecorp]

It was not easy to go to work this morning. This weekend didn't really provide much in terms of rest between getting up early early for the insperminations and spending a lot of free time cleaning house. Halfway through the morning I got the yawns and started feeling like it was a Friday and I was going to go home soon. Only I couldn't because I had to work until 6:30, then get gas, then pick some stuff up at the store.

At some point I need to bring the garbage/recycle down and put the laundry away but I just don't have the energy. I feel like I've been running for two weeks straight without any downtime. That's probably because I have. ;)

There is an abundance of media about 9/11 circulating, from television shows to movies to graphic novels to news stories. I'm glad I've avoided a lot of it because it still totally destroys me. When I was younger I could never understand how people could cry when Kennedy was shot, how it could still be upsetting to so many adults after all this time. I get it now, because there is a lump in my throat that I don't think will ever go away when I remember watching those beautiful buildings fall and think about all of the people who were hurt or killed. I know I've said this before but I just can't fathom that sort of thing. Bleh.

It's only one day past my last IUI and I'm already spinning about every little feeling or idea. I really think we have a good chance this cycle and am holding out hope that those swimmers lived long enough to get their little job done. I checked my cervix compulsively last night and figure I ovulated sometime between 5 and 7pm or so - so there's definitely a good chance. My boobs are still sore which is unusual, so of course I'm thinking this is a good sign. Whee! (I never noticed that people's boobs can get sore around ovulation, but that's probably because I didn't ovulate.)

Here's hoping!

Comments

[thatpatti.livejournal.com]

for a while, my boobs got SUPER sore around O. and i asked all around, because i had never heard of it either. i guess it's pretty common, just maybe not a common topic of conversation. ;)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I never noticed. I did notice that a lot of the time my boobs would get sore when I was about to get my period but I didn't get sore boobs around ovulation until I started all of this fertility business.

They're not SUPER sore but if I touch them, I know it.

[siercia]

Man, mine got so sore when I was knocked up that I couldn't walk down a flight of stairs without going "ow ow ow ow" all the way down.

Hopefully, this is a good sign for you =)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, erm, I can't imagine that would be a problem for me because, *cough* they don't move when I go down the stairs. But I /do/ hope this is a good sign and not just another side effect of all the drugs. :)

[kjames.livejournal.com]

if you're pregnant? they grow. and then? you get to experience the stair pain she's talking about.

believe me, i know this phonomenon. it's weird to go from a barely A to a B then a C. thhhheeeennnnn back to a barely A. :D

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, look - as long as they go back down to a nice, smallish size, I will take anything!

I don't want SUPER BOOBS!

[kjames.livejournal.com]

they *will* go back... they're just never the same. :D

dude, after my milk came in and they were huge? i was so not used to having boobs like that i would run into the wall with them when rounding a corner! hilarious, yet painful.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh my gosh, I am STILL laughing about this comment all these days later. :)

[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean about 9/11. I am lately disliking the way it's being capitalised on - and I am realising that capitalism is speeding things up including our grieving processes.

The time following an IUI is so exciting. I'm excited for you - I've probably already said that, at some point, but I am.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I just don't understand the need to make money on tragedy. I can understand wanting to disseminate information, and I can understand people's curiosity, and I can understand the push to be the BEST representative of what happened. Sure. But why all of a sudden right now, and why is there so much competition? I don't get it. I also don't get why we can't all have more time to grieve.

And thank you for your words. I'm excited, too - after taking two cycles off, it's nice to have something to DO and fret about. Things kind of gotten slacktacular around here with no 2ww, and it's nice to want to be neurotic and vigilant about something. And I still have such a good feeling, which is a nice change. :)

p.s. You are the best.

[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

THanks. You are pretty groovy too.

[estrange.livejournal.com]

Oh I hope it works this cycle!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Me too!!

[aminahfiddler.livejournal.com]

It has been a long week... I especially hated work today.

I'm feeling really sorry for myself about TTC today. My nurse made me pee on a stick today even though I knew it would turn up negative.

There was one good thing about the day. We've picked a wedding date! Oct 6 2007. Yikes.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I was really sorry to hear about your BFN. And it's always hard to come back to work after an extended break. :( *hugs*

Oct 6, 2007 sounds like a great day! That gives you plenty of time to plan but isn't TOO far. :) Hooray for you!

(And that sucks that the nurse made you POAS. I always ask my doctor's office if I can skip the beta and just come in if AF is late or I get a +hpt, but she says they have to check for chemical pregnancies and stuff. Bummer, I hate those negative betas.)

[colorbars.livejournal.com]

My father wrote a first hand account of being right next to Ground Zero when the poo hit the fan. The family website is down at the moment but i can let you know when it comes back up if you care to read it. We don't make a profit, I assure you.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I would read that. Personal accounts = okay. Mass marketed shlock = not okay.

I invited biophile over to rizzo41's house (where I was staying at the time) that night because he didn't have anyone to chill with and had walked home from Ground Zero with ash in his hair. We didn't talk much about what happened that night - too new, too scary, too shocking, too fresh.