A very eventful morning

[judecorp]

And not in the greatest way possible.

I woke up around 4am to turn over and I don't know why (I guess my subconscious mind knew something that my conscious mind did not) but I felt my pajama pants and they were W-E-T. Like, quite a lot. So I ran to the bathroom and a squirt of red blood came out (same as was on my pants) and I positively freaked out. And I woke Jen up. And I freaked her out. So we called the doctor on call. (Who happened to be my doctor.)

He was pretty nonplussed but said I could come in this morning for an ultrasound, so I called the Waltham office at 7:30 and they told me to come ASAP. I did, and everything seemed okay with the kids (heartbeats and all that) but the ultrasound tech was taking a LOT of pictures and wasn't doing any talking. She told us to wait and a nurse would talk to us. And we waited and waited and no one came, so I got an office person to nail someone down for me.

Come to find out, my doctor was there in Waltham that day doing surgeries, and he came out in his scrubs to talk to us. He made it all sound like no big deal and said I had a subchorionic hematoma which should go away on its own but might result in more bleeding. He offered little information, but then kind of read me the riot act about having him paged at 4am. He was kind of snarktacular about the whole thing, but honestly, what does he expect when someone wakes up in soaked pajamas?

We went to breakfast after and I was starting to feel normal again because I haven't had any more instances of bleeding, but then I got home and consulted with Dr. Google which is always dangerous. Now I am full of horror stories. Ugh.

All I can say is that I'm GLAD we called him at 4am. He needs to do his dang job!

Comments

[calledmara.livejournal.com]

eek, that sounds super scary. Of COURSE you should call you dr about that!

I fucking hate OB doctors -- my mom is an ultrasound tech and my aunt is an OB nurse and they both verify that they are lazy assholes who only want to show up for the last contraction so they don't waste their valuable time. My aunt has delivered several hundred babies herself because the doctor didn't want to come til the very end. I highly suggest looking into a midwife, but I guess twins might be too high risk for that?

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

My practice in my new location (because right now I'm still under the fertility clinic here in Boston) is a combo midwives/OBs practice. All women. And I can not wait!

[aminahfiddler.livejournal.com]

OMG. That is so scary. You were right to call the doctor. I'm glad you did. I can't wait until you get into the new house and have a new dr or midwife that hopefully will give you more information and talk to you. Maybe you'll find a midwife nurse amy. Fingers crossed for you that everything will be ok.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I can't wait to be done with his smug ass. Well, I guess I am technically done with him but if anything happens between now and Saturday he is the closest thing I have. But I am seeing my new clinic tomorrow morning to get a flu shot and i am going to talk to them about it.

[mollysummer72.livejournal.com]

absolutely right on to call the doc. that's scary stuff.
for what it's worth, every time I get an ultrasound, the tech barely says a word unless I ask.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

How annoying!

The tech that does my u/s during the week is usually quite chatty - she says what she's scanning and what she sees. She must know how unnerving it can be to just lay there.

[ladyoracle.livejournal.com]

Indeed! Doctors are on-call so you can call them.

I'm glad the babies are still okay.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

For real. On both counts.

xoxo

[cappucinogrrl.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, I'm sure you were scared. I'm glad it's okay. Dr. Google is a very bad idea.

When my mom was pregnant with my brother, she had the same thing happen. He's fine. She too had difficulty getting preggers and she was thirty-one at the time. Obviously, each body is different, but you know, just thought I'd bring up a success story.

Also, we get phone calls at 4 am all the time. This doc can bite me.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, there was actually some good news on Dr. Google as well but of course nothing hits you like the dramarama. I hate the internets, but I love them. Thank you for bringing it up.

And I'm glad you guys get phone calls without hassle. I mean, that's what frickin' pagers are for, right?

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

Oh, Jude. I from experience how scared you must have been. I had a very similar experience around 8 or 9 weeks where I woke up in the middle of the night soaked in blood. I thought for sure we were losing the baby.
Everything checked out fine for me, and I'm glad it did for you. Please take it easy today and try not to "google" so much. I did the same thing and it freaked me out too.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, it was awful as I'm sure you know. I mean, I had nothing, nothing, a little tiny bit of spotting then nothing, more nothing, and then all of a sudden soaked. It was the most awful feeling and you always think the worst. I mean, who would calmly think, "Maybe this isn't bad?" or whatever? Doctors are so weird.

I am sorry it happened to you and glad it all turned out. That was when the doctor told you that you had pockets of blood from having such a big lining for IVF, right?

He didn't sound overly alarmed but he never does. I hope my new provider is someone who actually cares about how people FEEL during these times.

[buddhafly4224.livejournal.com]

fuck that, i'd be freaking out, too, if i was squirting blood. doctors seem like such 1 dimensional people.

i agree, he's on call for a reason. and that was as good a reason as any.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I don't know anyone who would be calm and collected when covered in blood with no notice at 4am. I'd rather have more mice anytime.

[kjames.livejournal.com]

my of my good friends is pregnant, and bled (like the kind of bleeding you are describing) through her entire first semester. there was a pocket of blood right by the uterus and she was put on a lesser bedrest. it finally shrunk up and went away but things were very scary for awhile. i say all that to say that, yes it's totally scary and hopefully it will just go away. i'm going to pray for you and the kiddos safety. hang in there.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Karen. I appreciate it and got a good (unintentional) giggle at "first semester." Because really, pregnancy is kind of like school. :)

I'm glad everything shrunk up for your friend and I sure hope it does for me as well. My doctor (who isn't really my doctor anymore but whatever) didn't put any restrictions on anything but tomorrow morning I am supposed to see my new practice about my mercury-free flu shot and you can BET I am going to ask them, too, even though I won't technically see someone there for a real appointment until 12-12.

Most of the time they say that this sort of thing DOES shrink and is no big deal. And I am trying to find peace in the fact that I don't remember the dimensions of it but it didn't sound very big, so as long as it doesn't grow it will probably just disappear.

[jeney.livejournal.com]

Oh geez. That sounds terrifying! I'm glad they could actually say what it was, and not just, "well, it's one of those things!" because that is not comforting AT ALL.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's nice to have some sort of "reason" but I wish they had more information than just "Uhh, it should go away maybe sometime we're not sure."

[estrange.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad the babies are ok! I would be scared to death too. I'm glad you called the doctor even though he was an ass, aren't most though?

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I have had nice doctors but not during this fertility experience! Such jerks!

But I am still scared.

[mayna.livejournal.com]

I'm soglad the babies are OK! That would totally freak me out.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I am still freaked out. Apparently it can cause all kinds of problems like placental abruption and premature labor.

[hiddentask.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It's scary I know. I bled for 3 straight months with my 2nd pregnancy. I was scared all of the time. Heck I had a right it was pregnancy number 7 and I had manage to only get one kid to make it to the point of birth and that's only because he was induced 6 weeks early.


So I put myself on bedrest. I refused to move if I didn't have to. Once I stopped I felt better but I was still scared. Nothing and I mean nothing will make this fear go away until you give birth then you'll have a whole new set of worries. Try to take it easy and let your sweetie go kill the doctor for you or I can do that whichever makes you feel better. lol.


*hugs*

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

That sucks about the bleeding. Do they know what caused the bleeding? I'm glad everything worked out. So scary!

I wish I could put myself on bedrest but it is certainly not a possibility this week. Maybe next week? I don't know. I need to find a new job.

[(Anonymous)]

That sounds terrifying! Sounds like a jerk of a doctor. I hope it is nothing to worry about.

Do you have a new provider lined up for when you relocate? I'd be happy to share info about my midwife. She's great.

Good luck tomorrow

Eryn
http://twomomsarebetterthanone.blogspot.com/

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yes, I have a provider. I decided to go with Pioneer Women's Health in Greenfield because I wanted to deliver in a smaller hospital and I have heard good things about them. Who do you see? You know, in case I ever need a second opinion. :)

[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

Wow. I am glad the babies are okay. How scary! And that doctor was an idiot. No more google.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I really don't like my RE. I used to think I was overreacting to his snarkiness but who says, "Don't call me at 4am" to a woman who woke up in a pool of blood??!?!

[sassyjenski.livejournal.com]

oh, god, how scary. you totally made the right decision to call dr. fucker.

are you going to hampshire obgyn? they're really fabulous!

meet you soon!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yes, I feel like I made the right choice calling. We don't feel bad about it at all even though he was a jerk about it.

I went with Pioneer Women's Health. It was highly recommended to me.

xoxo
I don't know if Jen is going to let me go to IKEA on Sunday. I will keep you posted!

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

I can't believe he didn't think you should page him, but some docs are nimrods.

I am glad everything is okay. I will keep you and the two little ones in my prayers. Take good care -- you really are in my thoughts these days!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your words and your prayers. I believe they help.

[hopemcg.livejournal.com]

I know doctors want their sleep as much as the rest of us, but geez! If your aren't supposed to call when you are BLEEDING, when the hell ARE you supposed to call?

I'm sorry you had such a scary experience and that you weren't treated with the care you deserve.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Seriously, that was my take on it. I really believe that waking up in a pool of blood is cause for an on-call doc. And if he doesn't think so, well eff him. I would do it again.

I just hope it all resolves itself. And soon.

[wendywoowho.livejournal.com]

HOLY CRAP, that would be scary as all hell! And, um, suck it up, Dr. Man; bleeding = INSTANT CALL.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

FOR REAL. I feel completely justified in my calling.

[keelamonster.livejournal.com]

Okay, in defense of OB doctors, they're not all like that. I certainly wasn't when I was doing OB and my docs weren't like that. There's a little bit of bloody spotting and then there's bright red bleeding. You did the right thing. And I'd tell him how he made you feel, either in writing or the next time you talk to him. For real, sister.

he needs to know that you arent' a doctor and don't have has vast knowledge, you just are a woman who has worked really hard to get pregnant and would like to stay that way forat least 26 more weeks or more.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know not all doctors are like that. In fact, I bet MOST of them aren't. I have had a hate/hate relationship with my RE for a while now. What blows my mind is that it is his JOB to work with women who are having difficulty getting and staying pregnant, and then cares for them through the beginnings of these pregnancies. You would think he would have a LITTLE understanding. Grrrr.

I am considering writing a letter somewhere, but I don't know where. The fertility clinic doesn't have an "owner" that I know of. I don't plan to speak to him ever again. Perhaps writing a letter to him would help but I wouldn't even know what to say.

He needs to understand that until we had the frickin ultrasound that he /reluctantly/ said I could call for, we had NO idea what was happening and could only assume the worst. I hate him.

[jeney.livejournal.com]

Look what you've made me do - Go back to an earlier entry just so I can comment on the most recent one.

I'm so sorry for how you're feeling. I know what that fear feels like. And I know it is impossible to ignore, especially while you are being reminded constantly by the bleeding. It totally sucks. I'm sorry that you guys have to go through this.

I'm really glad she won't let you do stuff. Sue me.

I don't know what to say, really. I'm praying for you - believe that.

I know I'm just getting to know you, but I have been seeing you around LJ enough to feel profound sadness for you.

This sucks.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thank you for all of your kindness and your prayers. I really do believe that it is working and the Universe will respond. I also have faith that we wouldn't be blessed with these babies only to have them disappear so dramatically. So I am trying to hang in there. (It is easier when there is no bleeding, btw.)

I really like you, Jeney.

[violane.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. I was terrified when I bled when I had placenta previa. Every time you move you wonder what's happening; I felt like I had to check every few minutes to see if I was bleeding again.

I'm so glad the babies are OK. Bleeding, even a lot, in the first trimester is just so common. I'll think good thoughts for you.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

It's comforting to hear that SCH is fairly common. But really I would just like it to stop. :) I kind of enjoyed not having any spotting or whatever, especially since I haven't really had much in the way of pregnancy symptoms. I can't wait until I can feel movement or whatever so I can reassure myself more readily.

I am trying to hang in there.

[carina-s.livejournal.com]

No kidding. I am thinking of you.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thank you.