judecorp: (motherhood)
judecorp ([personal profile] judecorp) wrote2006-12-20 07:15 pm

Testing Fate Once Again

We had another ultrasound today. With an OB. The head of the practice, actually. He was awfully nice.

He wanted to do an internal ultrasound today. It was painful because of the awful internal I had in the inky morning. But...

Our baby is totally hanging in there. I don't know how that's possible, but s/he was doing that fetus thing. He didn't take measurements or measure the heart rate, but there was definitely a heartbeat, and eyes (with eyelids!), and because it was an internal you could really see the individual fingers. Wacky.

He couldn't find any evidence of the subchorionic hematoma and couldn't find a physical reason for the bleeding. His theory is that my body is really confused by the lost twin, because it hasn't started to reabsorb at all. He thinks my body doesn't know what to do with it. I don't know if that's true but whatever. He said we were definitely not out of the woods, especially with the heavy bleeding, but that he would expect that if we were going to miscarry, it would have happened already. But he was very cautious.

He wanted to bump my appointment up a week but because of scheduling, I'm going in on Friday, Jan 5 instead of Monday, Jan 9. So not too much different, but he wants me to have another ultrasound done as well.

We're still bleeding today, possibly from the jarring internal ultrasound, but we're hopeful at least for today. We're thinking of renting a doppler to put our minds at ease, even though I swore I would never do that.

[identity profile] mellybabe.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
oohh,thank goodness..*breathes*..hang in there,wee one!..lots of us are cheering for you & your family!!
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[identity profile] hope-persists.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
anything that will put your mind at ease is a great thing. good luck, and let me know at any point if there's anything i can do.

thinking of you a lot...

[identity profile] meglett.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
lots of relief sighing here.....we were getting a bit worried, figuring not posting yet=bad news. because we expect you to live for LJ. ;)

i hear the not out of the woods yet thing, but you certainly have a little fighter in there. love you guys!

[identity profile] kat-chan.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 12:54 am (UTC)(link)
Happy to hear the good news. I'm hopeful that things will somehow get easier in the near future. *hugs*

[identity profile] posthaste.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 12:55 am (UTC)(link)
*HUGS* you guys are just...i know we're new friends but man i just have so much admiration for you guys. you're both so strong. you rock :)

i rented a doppler with both of my pregnancies and it *totally* eased my anxiety. the second time around i rented one that showed the heartbeat rate too, that was a cool plus :)

[identity profile] aminahfiddler.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
Whew.

Hang in there little one. I'm glad you have some more answers and I'm glad that the doctor seems really cool.

I hope you can figure out what to say to your mom so she can calm down.

[identity profile] amyura.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
Phew.....hang in there baby! Your mammas love you!

Jude, I am deadly serious. You're going through very similar stuff to what I went through two years ago. If you would EVER like to chat and get together for some support I would love to. I'm on vacation all next week. Please let me know via email if this is something you're interested in..... amers at post dot harvard dot edu.

[identity profile] indigodove.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
I am so glad to hear this. Hang in there, all three of you!

[identity profile] kjames.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
OMG i'm so relieved for you!!! what a huge relief. i mean, yes, you're not out of the woods... but the baby is still there, alive and kicking! WHEW! i'm really glad. now listen, missy, take it easy. okay? even if you totally feel lazy just take it easy. no crazy unpacking and moving and all that shit.
this is a totally crazy rollercoaster ride. thanks for trusting us enough to allow us to come along with you via lj. hang in there, jude. :)

[identity profile] cappucinogrrl.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad to hear it. I'm still sending happy waves your way.

[identity profile] drainbead.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
I am totally crying right now.

This baby knows how much s/he is loved. Who wouldn't want to live, knowing that?

[identity profile] lunamoonwmn01.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
Thank god, yay!

Jude, listen to me on this one - rent the doppler. I am super-crunchy, homebirthing, breastfeeding forever, yadda yadda. I rented a doppler. My issues are different from yours, but due to body image stuff plus actually I did have some bleeding, I was convinced something was wrong. And I'm not usually one to freak out, but I was seriously unable to cope. I rented one, I used it about once every two weeks until I felt movement/we could hear the hb with a fetoscope, and I felt so much better. I got one of the ones where you can record the heartbeat and then put it on your computer - I listened to it when I felt unsure instead of using the doppler everyday.

I used to be very judgmental about "those kind of women", you know, the ones who can't calm down and need to rent dopplers. Then I got pregnant and you know what? It's all about informed choice. My baby didn't need psychotic hormones going through him/her either, when 20 seconds of doppler every couple of weeks could result in 1000x less stress.

Just my own experience.

[identity profile] rainbow-slinky.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
I was out shopping all night but I had Krista IM me on my phone once you posted. I was SO relieved to hear that lil dude is being a trooper. I'm going to email with the name/email of someone I think you should talk to.

[identity profile] jeney.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
OMG.

I can't even express the enormity of my relief. I was pretty stressed. Not that any of this is about me. But it's true.

Re: The internal ultrasound.

The condom distresses me in ways I can't explain.

HOORAY FOR THE BABY.

[identity profile] krazyleesa.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
That's great news! :)

well wishes from Chicago...

[identity profile] sundedaisy.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
I ran across your journal somehow at the beginning of your baby making...and have been rooting you two (three!!) through ever since. Guess I should have piped up before, cause it's kinda odd hearing from a complete stranger randomly...but really, I wish you the best of luck, and am pulling for the bay-bay and you and your wife. -Deanna

[identity profile] skatured.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 04:09 am (UTC)(link)
*whew* I am so glad. Maybe you need to send your body a Memo telling it to chill the heck out and relax. At least for a couple of months. It's wracking everyone's nerves!

Feel better tomorrow.

[identity profile] bit-of-muslin.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
Go little dude! Keep on truckin'

:)

(Anonymous) 2006-12-21 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
AAAGH! Best news ever!!!

I just read of your ordeal before going out to dinner...I couldn't stop thinking of you the whole evening.

I am soooo happy that your baby is such a little trooper!!! That angel twin is looking out for him/her!

Congratulations, you two. I will keep you in my prayers for sure, but today's news is HUGE! YAY!!!!!

Michele (crazymooshel from FF)

[identity profile] zuzubailey76.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 05:20 am (UTC)(link)
Yay, baby!

I think you should totally be like Tom Cruise and rent the home ultrasound or whatever. Just don't make us wait four months after the birth to see baby pictures, OK? Because your PUBLIC will be really upset if you do.

[identity profile] sassywoman.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 05:21 am (UTC)(link)
So happy to hear that your baby is hanging in there!!! Rent the doppler. You'll feel so much better.

[identity profile] mnsnstar.livejournal.com 2006-12-21 01:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm happy to hear that the lil' one is still there and holding on. S/he really wants to come into this world and see its mommas. Hang in there. Thinking postive thoughts!

(Anonymous) 2006-12-21 01:20 pm (UTC)(link)
we're so happy for you! we didnt have the internet for a few days and when it came back on i jumped over to see how things were going...
also thanks for keeping us all posted, im sure im not the only one who doesnt know you outside of the internet who is worried and keeping you in our thoughts and it is nice to be able to keep updated, though sometimes the post must be hard for you to write!

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