Baby on board?

[judecorp]

I tried on my dress for tomorrow's wedding to make sure it still looks okay before I cut all the tags off.

The good news is that it still fits just fine.
The bad news is that I don't look pregnant AT ALL.

*whine* I am so impatient! 17 weeks - shouldn't I look like I'm having a baby even a LITTLE bit?

I'm starting to wonder if Frankie's stopped growing in there!

Comments

[jeney.livejournal.com]

my first pregnancy, i was 7 months and if i was sitting down, it wasn't obvious that i was pregnant!

don't worry, if you decide to do this again, you will pop out much earlier.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, if we have other children (which of course I would like to but it depends kind of on $$$), it would be Jen's ute first (if she wanted to) and then adoption before I decided to go through the wringer again. Right now Jen wants to try to have a baby too (she was actually going to go first but I got impatient) so she gets first dibs. She almost lost her chance when we were having twins.

[jeney.livejournal.com]

Ok, then this will be the first time I've ever said this:

I'm glad you didn't have twins!

(ok...not really. i still wish you were having twins just a little bit)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I suppose in some ways it's better that we're not having twins but I sure do miss my other baby. :(

[jeney.livejournal.com]

you know what - i totally forgot. i forgot you were pregnant with twins and then lost one. i was getting you confused with a friend of mine who thought she was having twins, was upset about it and then found out she was having just the one.

i am so sorry for what i said. i never would have said that if my head wasn't so far up my ass that all reasonable thought became impossible.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Don't even sweat it. Honestly. I'm sure you didn't mean anything bad and I don't think your head is up your ass. I would say that most people forget that we lost a baby a) because we don't really talk about it and b) because it was a while ago and stuff. It's harder for me to forget about because it's actually still hanging out in my uterus (well, that and it was my baby). So seriously don't worry about it.

It's weird to be happy and disappointed at the same time, you know? On one hand I know it would have been exceptionally hard to afford two babies at once and so this is probably "easier," but at the same time I can't for the life of me figure out why God would give us two little heartbeats and take one away.

[jeney.livejournal.com]

I lost a baby and I can't relate to the mixed feelings you have now. It was the most traumatic thing that has happened to me since childhood, and as upsetting as it was, I think about how I'm glad I'm not raising a newborn right now. It's not that I'm glad I had the miscarriage - no way. We were SO happy to be pregnant. I guess I'm just glad we didn't try again. :D

I don't know the Why, either. But that's ok. For now. I'll ask later. :D

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

When you ask and find out, you will have to let me know, okay?

I remember when you lost your baby. So sad! :(