Radio Silence
Feb. 8th, 2007 04:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
judecorpA lot of really emotional things have been going on here in the past couple of months, culminating in a really difficult couple of weeks where I honestly thought that if it were possible to kill the baby by crying all the time, I would have.
I wish I felt like my journal was a safe place to air some of these difficulties, but the sad truth is that it's not. Things are starting to pick up a little bit and I'm pleased about that, hoping this was just one of those steep hills in the peaks and valleys of life.
A lot of the time I still feel really sad about the baby I lost. I almost said "lost in December" but by dates s/he died on Thanksgiving, possibly even just as I was showing my scan pictures to my grandparents for the first time. I'm even hesitating putting THAT out there, because honestly if one more person tells me "to be happy for the baby I still have" or about how it will be so much easier now that we're not having twins, I will lose it.
I just really miss my baby.
I wish I felt like my journal was a safe place to air some of these difficulties, but the sad truth is that it's not. Things are starting to pick up a little bit and I'm pleased about that, hoping this was just one of those steep hills in the peaks and valleys of life.
A lot of the time I still feel really sad about the baby I lost. I almost said "lost in December" but by dates s/he died on Thanksgiving, possibly even just as I was showing my scan pictures to my grandparents for the first time. I'm even hesitating putting THAT out there, because honestly if one more person tells me "to be happy for the baby I still have" or about how it will be so much easier now that we're not having twins, I will lose it.
I just really miss my baby.
