A very emotional day

[judecorp]

Seems like big, emotional things are popping up all over. I don't know if my heart is big enough to feel all of these emotions at once.

1. An online buddy of mine who I became chatty with when we found out we went to the same fertility doc - you might remember that she moved on to IVF after we got pregnant and then got pregnant with twins on her first IVF - well, she found out about a month ago that her girl twin had Turner's Syndrome and was barely hanging on to life. After several weeks, her little girl finally took her rest and now they have to keep that little boy in there as long as possible. My heart just breaks open for her and her husband. What a rollercoaster.

2. Another online buddy of mine is finally pregnant (in the uterus!) after her first successful IVF! Jenny'd had some ectopics and tube problems and this was pretty much their last ditch effort. So happy for her and Ezra!!

3. Another online buddy of mine is due in October and also may have discovered genetic problems with her little bean. They are doing more testing and I don't really understand everything about it but I guess they gave her little boy a 20% chance of survival. *gulp*

4. My friend Les just said goodbye to her beautiful dog. They've had so many years together and have been through so much. I always assumed that someday I would go down there and meet her finally and get to romp around with Monroe. I can't imagine that kind of loss, but whenever a friend loses a pet friend, I think about my cats and how I can't even think about losing them. So sad.

There's more, but this is the most recent. None of these incidents directly affects my life but man - so much emotion in such a small space. It seems like the universe is positively bursting with emotional energy these days. I'm not sure what's up with that.

Comments

[sunshyne72.livejournal.com]

I think you're wrong when you say it doesn't affect you directly. You are a very caring person and these are your friends and so when they have losses it's natural to feel that too. And I feel sad for them as well just by reading about it through you... so it's a whole domino effect sort of thing. I think today... is just a bummer of a day... it seems that way from everyone I've been in contact with so far.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well, what I mean is that these are not my losses to fret or my victories to celebrate. I can't possibly feel the amount of emotion that they are feeling, I can only touch on it.

It's just been a really up and down couple of months. I don't know if everything just SEEMS so intense because I'm pregnant, or if things really are more intense right now.