A little birdie told me that you can't make it by yourself

[judecorp]

I need to pack and hit the bed if I'm going to drag myself up at 4:30am to take a shower and get to the airport at 5:30 to go see a girl. I'll probably be checking LJ more than I usually do when I go away for the weekend, since The Girl will be sleeping a lot, I'd imagine.

Today was an interesting day. I was called 'dysfunctional' by Schoolmate Sheila because I like girls, I got completely furious at my boss, and I asked a lot of questions during a job interview for a friend of mine that basically ensured that he wouldn't get the job. At the same time, I learned that I really /am/ comfortable talking to anyone about anything A.-related, Coworker Stephanie bit me hard on the shoulder blade and gave me chills, and Schoolmate Jean said I was her best friend in our Families class.

So I leave you with this, even though I did it a couple of months ago:

Ask me something. Anything. I will answer. You betcha. Now's the time to ask the hard questions. There's no hour/day/week time limit. If it makes it here, I'll answer it. You can ask as many questions as you want, but only one at a time, because I'll get overwhelmed. :)

The price is that you have to answer this question:

One thing that really bugs me about you, Jude, is _______________.

Have a good weekend, kids!

Comments

Re: Ok. I'll bite.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

First of all, I'm sorry about yesterday on AIM. I didn't mean to be gone that long, and when I came back, I tried to ask if you were okay (I had come back to talk to you, and you answered with 'seeya' and then were gone after 'You okay?) but you were gone. I didn't want it to be like that.

Yes, in some ways it /is/ harder for me to talk online, usually because online I'm either a) at work or b) with Aaron sitting right behind me, and while he doesn't read my screen or anything, it feels like being in a computer lab. That still doesn't make it right that I disappear like that. I've also noticed that I will log on for like 10 minutes some nights, and sometimes I debate paging you in the first place because I don't want to hurt your feelings when I bail.

I am not a very good friend and I know it, and I'm sorry, and I wish I could be the kind of friend you deserve. I wish I could see you in person again. I wish a lot of things. Mostly, I wish I wasn't so damned busy, that I could stay online more without trying to do 600 things, and I know that's not a valid excuse.

No, you are not less important to talk to. But yes, I would rather it wasn't online, although I know that's really all we have right now. I will make an effort to not suck so bad. I wish I had a way to let you know how much you mean to me, how much I love spending time with you and talking to you. I wish I wasn't such a terrible friend. And I am.

I love you, and there really isn't any reason for you to believe me, but I do. I forgot today was Saturday so the birthday card I mailed you will be late, and there's something headed to you in the mail, too, but it got back ordered, so unfortunately I fucked that up, too. I'm sorry.

I hope you have a good time with your parents, and if I don't see you (since I'll be at work late on Monday and don't know if I'll be online), I hope you have a very happy birthday. You deserve it. You deserve everything.

Re: Ok. I'll bite.

[rizzo41.livejournal.com]

Yes, I'll admit that yesterday *I* was the one who bailed because I was upset and it was entirely the wrong time to get into it.

I accept your apology, and I thank you for it. I thought it best to make you aware of the issue, though you didn't need to commit a public flogging.

I also thank you in advance for whatever is in the mail. You didn't have to do that, but now I'm curious what it is. Thank you.

I love you, too.
I hope to talk to you soon.

Re: Ok. I'll bite.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I accept your apology, and I thank you for it. I thought it best to make you aware of the issue, though you didn't need to commit a public flogging.

Given the medium in which I was made aware, I don't know that I had any other recourse.