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Feb. 18th, 2002
May I never stop learning.
Feb. 18th, 2002 11:32 amThings I learned this weekend:
1. There is one sure-fire way to make me feel better when I'm sick and cranky.
2. The![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
columbus people are quite cool! Jennifer and I had brunchyfun with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
happy2beso, sixelachuck, pattisimmons, badadam, whod81, and laughingsal. The wait was long but the conversation was amusing, and laughingsal had the best coat ever. Yeah. ("You mean your diaphragm up here?")
3. 2 days isn't long enough. But she's right, there was so much pressure built up that if we'd gone to Boston like that, it would have been insane.
4. I can't go back to sleep once I'm awake. 4:30am, whoo baby.
5. Last night from 11pm to 12am was my nicest nap ever. Ever. I don't even remember drifting off.
6. I'm right. This is right. She's right. We're right.
1. There is one sure-fire way to make me feel better when I'm sick and cranky.
2. The
columbus people are quite cool! Jennifer and I had brunchyfun with happy2beso, sixelachuck, pattisimmons, badadam, whod81, and laughingsal. The wait was long but the conversation was amusing, and laughingsal had the best coat ever. Yeah. ("You mean your diaphragm up here?")3. 2 days isn't long enough. But she's right, there was so much pressure built up that if we'd gone to Boston like that, it would have been insane.
4. I can't go back to sleep once I'm awake. 4:30am, whoo baby.
5. Last night from 11pm to 12am was my nicest nap ever. Ever. I don't even remember drifting off.
6. I'm right. This is right. She's right. We're right.
Run in Ph34r!
Feb. 18th, 2002 11:41 amI bring you... The Jesus Dance. Thanks to juliann for getting this stuck in my head before a full day of work exhaustion.
Hee.
juliann for getting this stuck in my head before a full day of work exhaustion.Hee.
I'm so gothic I suck my own blood.
Feb. 18th, 2002 09:01 pm  You are most like Olive, run through with an awl! Created by Thren.Which Gashlycrumb Tiny are you? |
Sad but true.
Feb. 18th, 2002 09:40 pmI know in my head that I shouldn't get my hopes up. I know that this is the fourth time that you're telling me, "I'll be in touch to talk about this," and I know that this will be the fourth time I watch one week go by, then two... until finally I try again.
Why do I perpetually do this? Why don't I just get it through my thick skull that no, you don't want to talk to me, that no, we're not going to be friends like we said we would, and that no, this isn't repairable. I fucked it up when I didn't make your dreams come true, and I know that, and believe me, I'm sorry, even though it's not a "fault" situation.
I really had no intention of things going this way. This wasn't some sort of cunning master plan. I know that you didn't mean to make promises of friendship, and I won't hold you to them. I won't. But I /am/ disappointed, because I care. Because I care very deeply. I don't love indiscriminantly. Not by a long shot.
You'd think, though, that I would have learned this in December. I'm a smart girl after all. I guess I'm just too stubborn for that. Or a glutton for punishment. Or a doormat. Or something.
Either way, it's up to you now. I can't reach out a fifth time, so if you /are/ serious about things, you know where to find me.
Why do I perpetually do this? Why don't I just get it through my thick skull that no, you don't want to talk to me, that no, we're not going to be friends like we said we would, and that no, this isn't repairable. I fucked it up when I didn't make your dreams come true, and I know that, and believe me, I'm sorry, even though it's not a "fault" situation.
I really had no intention of things going this way. This wasn't some sort of cunning master plan. I know that you didn't mean to make promises of friendship, and I won't hold you to them. I won't. But I /am/ disappointed, because I care. Because I care very deeply. I don't love indiscriminantly. Not by a long shot.
You'd think, though, that I would have learned this in December. I'm a smart girl after all. I guess I'm just too stubborn for that. Or a glutton for punishment. Or a doormat. Or something.
Either way, it's up to you now. I can't reach out a fifth time, so if you /are/ serious about things, you know where to find me.
