I'm not too proud to say when I was wrong.

Wow. There are three weeks worth of entries on my "recent entries" page. Usually there are about 5 days worth or so, a week at most. I have been very, very silent. In some ways, there haven't been time and words to put into what has been going on. And then there was the extended playing of hostess to three wonderful people who spent over two weeks worth of nights here. And then there was the fiasco that was "dealing with the new job." And I could probably make more excuses, but I won't. Not right now.

( Two weeks ago plus... )

2002 has completely flown by. I remember how anguished I was toward the end of 2001 and all I could think of was "2002 will be better. 2002 HAS TO BE better." It has been everything I wanted and more. I've all but forgotten (but not unhealthily so, I don't think) the unpleasantry, the false me. I've been so busy, so productive, so happy, so intense. There were definite down times, but not bleak, black times. 2002 is nearing an end - I hear the crunching of leaves under heavy shoes outside my window - and more than anything else, I have found peace with myself and the universe again.

And I have great friends. And life is wonderful with them.

( And an amusing side note: )

Funny work stories!

Coworker Jennifer says I must be giving out a "weird hetero vibe." Last week, I was asked on a date by a resident. When he asked, "Is it because I live here in the shelter?" I said, "That has a lot to do with it." When he said, "What about when I get out?" I said, "I just don't think it will work out." A few minutes ago, at the snack machine, one of our security guards asked me to go to the movies with him this weekend. I'll be in Missouri, though. WHAT IS UP WITH THIS? Have I worked at a Big Gay Job^TM for so long that I missed all of this? I totally don't think I'm giving out any "date me" vibes at all...

On a related note, Coworker Ed came into my office to say goodnight. I was cutting out a picture of me from Provincetown. He said, "Ooh, you've got pictures." I proceed to continue cutting out the picture, on top of which is a picture of Jen kissing me on the cheek. He says, "Where are these from?" Caught offguard, and wondering if he's noticed the other pictures, I stammer, "Umm... Massachusetts. Cape Cod." HAR HAR!

Yesterday, Coworker Jenise and I spent the day writing funny emails to each other. ( We're so funny. )

As Annie would say, "I think I'm gonna like it here!"

Things that make me happy:

Moxie - A. brought me a 2 litre bottle of Moxie from his travels in Maine, because I love it so much. I just remembered that I had it, and I took a sip. Yum.

Ani DiFranco's "So Much Shouting, So Much Laughter" - It hasn't left my car in days.

Talking to Jennifer

Work - Or, well, walking into the shelter and having lots of residents say hello to me.

Jodie - Not only did she buy me really beautiful flowers, but I have been eating chocolate cake for breakfast for days now. Yum.

Travel - I get to go to Missouri this weekend and visit Baga. YAY!

eBay - I'm trying to win a special gift for a special person.

This song - Not only do I love this song in general (it has always seemed very 'me' to me), I love this version. I am enthralled with Edie Brickell's voice, and it also reminds me of Born on the Fourth of July which I also happened to like very much.

Bed - Yes, I think it's time to curl up and drift off.