Do-Over Day

Bad start to the day - the alarm went off 30 minutes before it had to because I didn't know Jen was working late tonight, got out of bed to find that all of my closet hardware broke and everything was everywhere, got to work to find out that both of my playgroup co-teachers called out today. Which was a disaster in and of itself. Everyone was crying and screaming, parents were everywhere, and I looked like an incompetent ass for 3 hours. Great.

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Off to the dentist. Yuck. I would MUCH rather be spending the money somewhere else.

Then to a home visit. Yuck. I would MUCH rather be spending my post-dentist time somewhere else.

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Also, we've had our central air on for the last 3.5 days straight or so due to the ridiculous humidity. It's 90 degrees today and you can bet that the freaking central air has been running non-stop all day.

I /fear/ our next electric bill.

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My cat just pooped and I can smell it all the way over here. Gross.

Tingly

That feeling when you're partially numb and partially not-numb is the weirdest ever. My tongue now feels mostly normal but my lower lip (left side) feels gigantically swollen and tingly. ARGH MAKE IT STOP!

After I got my wisdom teeth surgically removed in 2000, my chin was tingly-numb for about 5 months. I guess they nicked a nerve or something. I used to poke at it all the time, and for a while I was really worried that it would be permanently damaged.

Then one day I noticed that it wasn't tingly anymore. It was like the last 5 months had been a dream. Isn't it totally weird when that happens?

Working on Things

A little while ago, technodyke got the amazing idea to ask her readership to state and describe those parts of our bodies that we hate. It was very eye-opening, both to see what things were hated by people whom I happen to think are totally beautiful, and also to see how common everything was, how normalized. So often in my work I try to make people feel better by normalizing their fears/difficulties, but never really knew the total effect until I participated in her little experiment. And people were able to get great feedback from other people, which was also awesome.

Since I (and a lot of other people) found it so helpful, I thought I would try to start a similar dialogue about another touchy subject: personal flaws. We have them. We don't like to admit we have them. We don't like to talk about them. And when things happen because of them, we look for anything or anyone else to blame. We say we're working on them, or we need to work on them, and then we let things go along swimmingly and put them aside until the next dilemma.

I'm going to start the hard work now by telling you all some of the flaws that I have, some of the issues in my life and in my personality that I really and truly need to work on. And you might think less of me and you might not, but I encourage you to list some of your own just the same, if you dare. Come on, let's see how painfully /human/ we all really are. Shall we?

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That's enough for now. Do you want to play? Come on, admit it, post it, let it go to the wind. Read the others, see you're not alone, see how strong and self-aware and passionate you are. Support each other. Offer each other suggestions. BE REAL WITH EACH OTHER. This is your life, and it is ending one moment at a time. Make this one count: for you, for me, and for all of the others who are brave enough to post here. No flaming, please.