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[judecorp]

I feel like I haven't gone out in ages. I mean, I go to the movies, and I go out to dinner, but I don't really go out and be social. The last time I went out for real was when I went to that bar in Chelsea to have a mini-reunion with some people I went to college with. Before that was I don't even know when. It's frustrating, because I used to go out all the time. I remember a time when it was not uncommon for me to go out to several places with different people, and make plans after plans. It was kind of nice, especially because when I have down-time I tend to fill it with malaise.

Daina called to see if I/we wanted to go to Summit for the Camp Sunrise fundraiser. I was all kinds of excited about it because Jen and I went last year and had a really good time, and I ended up running into a whole bunch of people that I hadn't seen in a long time - people I knew from Big Gay Work or from other random things. It has been so freaking long since I did anything social in the community - probably Pride, I'm guessing - and I miss it. I don't really have any desire to be one of those people that clubs all the time, or only goes to queer spaces, but once in six months is not enough. So I asked Steve (who was with us) and Jen, and they both said they wanted to go. I made the mistake of anticipating it, though, because first Steve told me he was only kidding about wanting to go, and then Jen said she didn't want to go either. I tried to call Daina a couple of times to see if she was there, because I would have gone by myself and met her there, but she didn't answer her phone. So here I am. 11:30 on a weekend night and I'll probably go to bed soon. Like last night. And last weekend.

I am starting to become one of those people who whines in journals. I'm an emo bitch. Yay. Maybe I just perpetually wish I was on vacation. Maybe I need to find that "vacation space" in my head so I can tap into it on regular occasions.

Today I went through my health insurance company online to check the names of some counselors I know. (Well, not know /personally/, but know by reputation.) Next step is to find my policy and see what all is covered, so I don't get screwed with an enormous bill. And then... to make the calls.

Something needs to change soon. And not just this damned weather.

Comments

[elspazz0.livejournal.com]

love you. miss you. anytime you want to go out, just let me know. i don't go out often, but i would totally make the extra effort if you wanted to "paint the town red." i'm kind of in the same place you are right now, i think, where something isn't feeling right and i need to change it. we should help each other.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I would rather paint the town green. Green like GIANT BAGS OF MONEY.

[bethisbitter.livejournal.com]

wait.. is this my journal? oh wait its yours... i dont go out either.. and that sucks... and i whine all the time.. mostly about not getting laid.. but other things too... we should go out.. to a place that doesnt even like movies.

[00solstice.livejournal.com]

no, it's neither of yours... it's my journal.

I wasn't interested in going out either, yet I come home and 5 minutes later I'm bored. Go figure...

I tried to convice Jude and Jen for coffee and games tomorrow. If they do decide (they can be sooo capricious) to attend, you're more than welcome to join us too!

[bethisbitter.livejournal.com]

i have the entire day off my friend.. keep me updated

[00solstice.livejournal.com]

cool... it looks like a bunch of people are heading to Staufs's now...

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

We're going to Stauf's like... right now. (7:30pm)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

We should go out. And whine. What do you say?

[grrlpower.livejournal.com]

you should have come - I was there from 8 - 10:45 and it was PACKED - all sorts of people you know by association and only see at queer events!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

But by the time I would have been able to get there, it would have been around 10:45... and then you would have been gone!!

[grrlpower.livejournal.com]

ah yes, then I went to Lil Brothers to see a friend's sister's girlfriend's band, and then to wall st. It was a jam-packed evening of queerness!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Woah! You are BUSY.

(and you're quick with the replies)

We should hang out sometime. You go out all the time! :)

[grrlpower.livejournal.com]

fo' sure, there's always somethin to do, though I am tryin to cut back a lil, Im tiring myself out!

[calledmara.livejournal.com]

Next time I go out I will call you, ok. Sorry you didn't make it.

It was packed, we actually got turned away and came back later. We had lots of fun though. Maybe it's good you didn't come, you missed me singing drunk with my friends. But you get to see me sing sober. :)

I'm sorry I did't answer my phone.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You so don't have to apologize, although I would have loved to have seen some drunken karaoke.

Although I'm glad I didn't just decide to show up, since you got turned away.

See you tomorrow!

[calledmara.livejournal.com]

Oh nonono this was drunken singing along to jukebox singing. Drunken karaoke is classy by comparison. $3 worth of drunken jukebox singing.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Dude, regardless. Next time there is drunken singing of any kind, I WANT IN.

Columbus Dispatch

[osusbgirl.livejournal.com]

Heya-

I saw both of your pics (I think the other is Jen) in the paper this morning, so I thought I'd say hi. :-P I haven't been up to going out either, but then again, I NEVER am. Hope you're feeling better...

Re: Columbus Dispatch

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

We were in the paper? What paper? For what?

Do you have this paper? I'd kind of like to see. :)

Re: Columbus Dispatch

[osusbgirl.livejournal.com]

You didn't??????? It's in the first page of the art section in the Sunday Columbus Dispatch. The title is "Bhorus provides vocal testament to power of women, song". I don't really think it's Jen, but you have your hand on some woman's head "feeling the musical vibrations"? I'll save it if you didn't have a chance to get it.

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[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I actually went to Stauf's tonight with some people and I 'borrowed' their Arts section. Yep, that's me, and the person with her hand on my head is not Jen, it's my section leader Alison. But that's so weird!

There are 60 women in my chorus, and the dude took like 20 pictures. WHAT ARE THE ODDS??!?!

Thanks for the tip and the offer.

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[osusbgirl.livejournal.com]

Ahhh.... Oh, did I mention that I HATE you for introducing me to mine and Gina's new addiction???? We go to UDF at least 4 times a week to buy BLUE MOO Cookie Dough and it's ALL YOUR FAULT! :-P

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[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Awesome! I haven't had any Blue Moo since that time I went with you, but it sounds SO delicious right now. Mmmmmmm. (Or, I mean, Mooooooooo.)

So did you go get hitched yet or what?

Re: Columbus Dispatch

[osusbgirl.livejournal.com]

Are you serious? We've had it prolly a hundred times since I had it with you! :) Nope, we're not officially hitched yet. We were sorta forced to wait because I got hired as an STNA and started working when we were supposed to be leaving. It's okay though because we want to be able to take more time off than just 2 days anyway, AND... I want to start the process of changing my name before.

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[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad I have had such a profound impact on your lives. :)

Good luck with the wedding plans, and if I may be so nosey, are you changing your name to Geanna's name, or hyphenated, or a new name, or what? I am so curious about what other women do. :)

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[osusbgirl.livejournal.com]

Thank you! You can be as nosey as you'd like...I'm changing it to Geanna's last name, no hyphen! :)

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[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Cool!

[folkyboy.livejournal.com]

i never really thought of you as a whiner, to be honest. you always have a humoristic approach to stuff that makes it easy on the read :)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Eh, it's just 'cause you don't live with me. Trust me, I'm a total whiner. :)

[whirledpeas.livejournal.com]

Yeehaw, whiner.

What is it with the "I have to be perfect all the time" thing in Journals? I do it too.

I whine too, must be why I like you.

Hey, I met you in the bathroom at that fundraiser!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I <3 whiners.

Wow, that's right, you did! That must be why I have such a good memory of it!!

[nikongirln70.livejournal.com]

I am starting to become one of those people who whines in journals.


just like me! yay, i mean awwww.... :(

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

We can all whine together! Maybe I wouldn't whine so much if you were here with me. :)