I can finally put this up now

[judecorp]

(It was too painful before.)

There are no words
for the way I feel.
I can offer some inadequte attempts:
sad
hopeless
frustrated
desperate
aching
devastated.
But the fact of the matter
is that I'm in my pajamas
instead of my armor.
And my sword and shield are
nowhere to be found.
And all of those people, out there, in here...
and I am a fucking social worker
and a knight
and a person
but there isn't anything I can do.
So take my shiny mail
and take my horse
because I'm utterly useless.

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[rizzo41.livejournal.com]

Useless? I don't think so. I can't begin to tell you how thankful I was to have you beside me on the couch Tuesday morning.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You have no idea how glad I was that you were there. Not only to lean against and touch, but just that you were /there/. That you hadn't gone into Manhattan to work. That you weren't walking to the 59th Street Bridge. That you weren't inhaling bits of beautiful buildings.

Thank goodness for you.