judecorp | Am I secretly a man?

Another productive work week. If I keep billing for so many hours, my director is going to make out with me or something. Seriously. I think I billed something like 27 hours this week. (That doesn't sound like much, but it is. Our productivity only counts actual face time, and does not include transportation, paperwork, or telephone calls.) That's a lot of face-to-face time with the zero to threes! I think that by the time I have children (if I am ever so fortunate) I will be prepared!

Speaking of children, I'm so frustrated today about how it seems like the whole idea of my actually being a parent is all in my head and will never really happen. Unless things change dramatically, it's certainly not going to happen here in the Notorious D-O-T, that's for sure. This evening Jen started talking (again) about wanting to go back to school to finish up her MFA in computer graphics that she started in San Francisco. Shoot, that'll push the whole "family" thing back another bunch of years. I understand that she has goals and I want to support them 100%, but at the same time I have had one goal for like the past five years (or maybe the past 29?) and that is GIVE ME A BABY, PLSTHX, OR I'MMA SPLODE!

Speaking of 'splode, in this same conversation this evening she said, "So I was looking at OSU," and I just wanted to rip my hair out. No, really. Really really. Hellooooooo, we just blew thousands of dollars leaving Columbus. It's times like this that I realize that I just am not hardwired to be supportive, because I'm just too linear, realistic, and practical. (Do I have a penis hiding in here somewhere? *checks*)

p.s. Big huge prayers go to

rebasayre and

kylesatt, because they're going to GET THEIR BABY on Sunday morning. WOW! They're taking her early (Reba's at 33 weeks), so I've decided that they need their own personal Early Intervention specialist. ME So they should just ship me over! :)

p.p.s. Lots of warm thoughts to

juliann as well. Happy upcoming birthday, Mama. This will be the year that things turn around for you, I just know it!