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[judecorp]

• I almost got in a wreck today. I was driving through an intersection and someone on the other street was going to blow through the red light. Lots of screeching brakes (on his part), lots of horn blaring (on my part). They say accidents happen close to home, and this was certainly no exception - right on the corner of the two main streets near my place.


• I don't even care who gets voted off American Idol anymore. I don't really like any of the contestants anymore. In some weird twist of fate, my favorite is now Taylor. Mostly because none of the other people do it for me. Chris, you annoy me. Paris, it's time to go. Elliott, you're just not pop star material. And I've never had the McPheever.


• I attempted six home visits today. Even /without/ 1.25 hours of staff meeting, that's a long day. Oof.


• Noodle casserole was just as good the second day. Yum.


• This weather has GOT to stop. It is so cold and so damp and so disgusting. All I want to do is sleep and sleep. Please bring back the sun.


• I want to know what our inspermination plan is so I know how it affects our weekend, if at all. It's hard to be unable to plan anything, especially with Northampton Pride and Game Night and trying to visit my grandparents.


• Next weekend is our first legal wedding anniversary. So awesome. My wife rocks.

So I have another ultrasound and more bloodwork tomorrow. I'm nervous that nothing will have changed, that I won't have any promising follicles, that my estradiol is still low. For a little bit this morning I felt kind of lubed up, so I'm hoping that means my E2 is bumping up and my cervical fluid is becoming more fertile. I haven't had the sort of O-pains that I had last month but I'm still hopeful that something is growing in there! I just keep telling myself that last month I didn't even go in until CD14 and only had a 19mm follicle. Although that leads me to believe that I don't respond as well to Clomid as I would like to.

I hate that so much hope and so much emotion is tied into just a few moments per day, a few days into every cycle. It's just... too much for one little chunk of time. It's all wait-wait-wait-wait-MOMENT-wait-wait-wait-MOMENT-wait-wait-wait-wait-TEST.

Fru. Stra. Tion.

Comments

[buddhafly4224.livejournal.com]

taylor, indeed.


i knew you'd come through ;)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I always thought he was goofy and fun, but now he's the only one that can even make me crack a smile. The others were a total snoozefest.

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

The waiting is the hardest part. You wait for the big moments with your stomach in a knot awaiting some sonogram or blood draw. If it helps at all to know I'm right there with you take comfort in that!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thank you, it does help. I think of you and some of my other TTC/infertility buddies whenever I'm jumping through all of those hoops.

xo

[sassywoman.livejournal.com]

:) I'm there with you!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Good!

Clomid

[bec4joy.livejournal.com]

Hey.. My question is im on day 2 or possilby day 1 since I was just spotting yesterday.. not sure what day this actually is.. But anyways my question is.. I have horrible cramps on my periods.. Does Clomid make them better or worse.. or just the same.. Or dont you know..

And yes.. that means.. I AM starting to start the process.. Im so excited Jude.. OMG..

I have never been so excited to start my cycle..

Re: Clomid

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Bec,

Day 1 is the first day of what they call (which makes me cringe) "full flow" - which usually means the first day of full red blood or the first day that you have to use tampons/pads rather than, say, a panty liner. If you were just spotting yesterday, today is Day 1.

As for Clomid and cramps, I don't really know as I don't get a lot of cramps. Clomid didn't do anything to affect my cycle last cycle (when I first took it), but I noticed that my period was /considerably/ lighter this cycle, and I think that was from last month's Clomid. Not sure, though.

Good luck to you!

[violane.livejournal.com]

Grow follicles, grow! I hope they're ready to go for you at tomorrow's appointment! I know what you mean about the crucial moments ... it definitely doesn't help with the stress part!

What do you do for a living, out of curiosity? It sounds kind of social work-y and potentionally rewarding, from what I can gather. I'm finishing up my psychology degree and wanting to do something therapeutic eventually; not sure what yet. Anyway, it sounds like you are good at it!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Well they were definitely not RTG (Ready To Go!!) this morning, which is just plain sad. I'm going back in on Saturday morning to see if they're getting better. God, I hope Saturday is IT. I was spoiled last cycle and only had to go in once for u/s. Dang! What also sucks is that all weekend stuff goes through the Waltham office, which is in another town nowhere near me. Well, I mean, it's near me in the sense that it's about 20 miles maybe? But still. Not my doctors. Not my nurses. (However, they also do all IUIs with frozen sperm at the Waltham office, so I've been there once and should probably get used to it.)

And you're right, I am a social worker. I'm currently working at an Early Intervention provider in the inner city. EI is a home-based program for children under 3 who have or are at risk for developmental delays.

I have a BA in Psych but found that there wasn't much I could do with it, jobwise. I got an M.Ed. and later an MSW. I've found the MSW much more marketable (just not lucrative).

Props to you Jude

[bec4joy.livejournal.com]

Jude..

My visit to the dr.. Do you have to do this every month.. that was so so gross. LOL.. Please dont tell me if this cycle I dont get pregnant I have to do that again.. And did the nurse have to put her whole weight on my tummy? If I wasnt crampin then I should have been afterwards.. LOL

Re: Props to you Jude

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Okay, I don't even know what to tell you, because I have never had an internal exam at my RE's office. (That's my infertility specialist, a Reproductive Endocrinologist.) I had a pap at my last physical with my regular doctor (I think in November). What I /do/ end up with is a LOT of ultrasounds to check my ovaries for follicles/cysts/whatever - and one time they asked ME to push down on a spot on my tummy to get a better picture. (I said I expected payment!)

Your experience sounds yucky and I have SO never had to deal with anything like that. Just ultrasounds, blood tests, and the IUIs themselves (which do cramp a little bit and there is speculum yuckiness).

*hug*