This cursed cycle

[judecorp]

About 15 minutes ago, I got all ready to do my trigger shot. Last month was such a piece of cake, so I was all ready. I got out my alcohol wipe and I rubbed an area, I got all of the air out of the needle, and then, holy crap, when I went to stick the needle in it hurt so bad I couldn't do it! I didn't know what to do, so I pulled it out and tried again in another spot about 1cm from the last spot - same thing. At this point, I was /really/ freaking out. I took a little break and walked around the house for a minute. Then I got a new alcohol wipe and prepped an area on the other side of my belly. This one went in no problem just like last month. WTF?

Looking down on the first area, I can see that I'm starting to get a little bruise. Jen thinks maybe I hit a nerve or something. All I know is that I was so freaked out that when I went to give myself the shot for the third time, I almost fainted. (And that has NEVER happened to me before.) But now I'm paranoid that I really screwed it up, by jabbing the needle halfway in (and then out again) two times before successfully giving the shot. I guess there's no use worrying about it, but I'm still all jittery. That was effed up.

This is totally the cycle of doom. I occasionally read stories where women are like, "I just knew we were out this month, everything went wrong, but look, we're pg!" I would like to have a story like that, especially when this cycle has been so freaking ridiculous - all of the Clomid emotional drama, the slow-growing follicles, the disappearing EWCM, the day-after trigger, and now the injection mishap. I give up.

Comments

[violane.livejournal.com]

Yikes! I'm so sorry to hear about the painful shot. I remember my dad hitting a nerve once when he used to give himself allergy shots, and I have always been slightly paranoid of that happening to me because there's no way to prevent it!

I was so smug when I gave my shot last time (and everyone, including you, was so reassuring about it). I will be really freaked out if it hurts really badly next time!

I really hope this is your cycle, where you get to say how doomed it seemed like it was, and yet it worked anyway!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I hear you, because I was totally smug about my last shot, too. And what's funny is that once I moved to the other side of my belly, it was just like that last smug shot - no problem. So I'm guessing it was a nerve. That part of my belly (where I tried the first two times) is still a little sore, while the other side (that actually got the drugs) is totally fine and not-noticeable. Frustrating.

I was all ready to feel totally reassured this morning when I saw my "Peak" on my monitor. So of course that didn't happen. I got the same "High" reading I've been getting for the last three days. The monitor is supposed to pick up the trigger shot and record it as Peak... so now I need to call my doctor's office and find out why the heck that didn't happen.

This cycle is totally going to kill me.