This cursed cycle

[judecorp]

About 15 minutes ago, I got all ready to do my trigger shot. Last month was such a piece of cake, so I was all ready. I got out my alcohol wipe and I rubbed an area, I got all of the air out of the needle, and then, holy crap, when I went to stick the needle in it hurt so bad I couldn't do it! I didn't know what to do, so I pulled it out and tried again in another spot about 1cm from the last spot - same thing. At this point, I was /really/ freaking out. I took a little break and walked around the house for a minute. Then I got a new alcohol wipe and prepped an area on the other side of my belly. This one went in no problem just like last month. WTF?

Looking down on the first area, I can see that I'm starting to get a little bruise. Jen thinks maybe I hit a nerve or something. All I know is that I was so freaked out that when I went to give myself the shot for the third time, I almost fainted. (And that has NEVER happened to me before.) But now I'm paranoid that I really screwed it up, by jabbing the needle halfway in (and then out again) two times before successfully giving the shot. I guess there's no use worrying about it, but I'm still all jittery. That was effed up.

This is totally the cycle of doom. I occasionally read stories where women are like, "I just knew we were out this month, everything went wrong, but look, we're pg!" I would like to have a story like that, especially when this cycle has been so freaking ridiculous - all of the Clomid emotional drama, the slow-growing follicles, the disappearing EWCM, the day-after trigger, and now the injection mishap. I give up.

Comments

[cappucinogrrl.livejournal.com]

The ultrasound wand goes up your hoo-hah? What? Why? When I had an ultrasound to check for PCOS they didn't do that.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

You didn't have a transvaginal??!?!? How did they do your ultrasound, just through your belly? I've never heard of an ultrasound to check ovaries that /wasn't/ the dildo cam.

You're lucky!

[cappucinogrrl.livejournal.com]

Nope, no dildo cam. That would've been a bit traumatic at aged 16 or whenever the hell it was. It was just through the belly - I remember I had to drink a lot beforehand, and the nurse could tell I really had to pee. Hah. Is there anyway that she wasn't look at my ovaries, but more at my uterus or something?

Also - my roommate is diabetic and has to inject herself before every meal. She says that all she does is find the flabbiest parts of herself - so she usually goes for the belly. I'm sorry to hear it hurt your leg :-(

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Oh wow, you're lucky. When I got checked for polycystic ovaries several years ago they made me do the full bladder thing, too - except they used the transvaginal ultrasound. Oh my god, I thought I was going to pee all over that lady! She was like, "Oh my goodness, how much did you DRINK this morning?" I guess my bladder was incredibly huge. ;)

And yeah, if you're doing a subcutaneous injection (like mine was), it's best to pick somewhere fatty. That's why I did my belly (not my leg) but I think I'll stick to the left side from now on.

xo