This cursed cycle

[judecorp]

About 15 minutes ago, I got all ready to do my trigger shot. Last month was such a piece of cake, so I was all ready. I got out my alcohol wipe and I rubbed an area, I got all of the air out of the needle, and then, holy crap, when I went to stick the needle in it hurt so bad I couldn't do it! I didn't know what to do, so I pulled it out and tried again in another spot about 1cm from the last spot - same thing. At this point, I was /really/ freaking out. I took a little break and walked around the house for a minute. Then I got a new alcohol wipe and prepped an area on the other side of my belly. This one went in no problem just like last month. WTF?

Looking down on the first area, I can see that I'm starting to get a little bruise. Jen thinks maybe I hit a nerve or something. All I know is that I was so freaked out that when I went to give myself the shot for the third time, I almost fainted. (And that has NEVER happened to me before.) But now I'm paranoid that I really screwed it up, by jabbing the needle halfway in (and then out again) two times before successfully giving the shot. I guess there's no use worrying about it, but I'm still all jittery. That was effed up.

This is totally the cycle of doom. I occasionally read stories where women are like, "I just knew we were out this month, everything went wrong, but look, we're pg!" I would like to have a story like that, especially when this cycle has been so freaking ridiculous - all of the Clomid emotional drama, the slow-growing follicles, the disappearing EWCM, the day-after trigger, and now the injection mishap. I give up.

Comments

[estrange.livejournal.com]

I don't blame you - I would totally be freaking out too!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

It was seriously freaky. I totally almost vomited and then passed out. Yuck.

But it's all good now.

p.s. How are you doing? Thinking of you.

[estrange.livejournal.com]

Yeah the entire thing would totally freak me out. I don't even know if I could do it. I'd be a nervous wreak. Kudos to you for doing it! I just saw a lady do it on What About Brian and thought of you.

I'm ok - still sick with this awful cough. I just wish it would go away. Tomorrow is the ultrasound on my breast which I'm not looking forward to. :/

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you're starting to feel a little better, but I'm sorry you're still coughing so much. I think I'm getting sick, too. My throat is sore on the left side, which is common for me. Hopefully after some sleep it will feel better.

xoxo