We built on the river.

[judecorp]

I had a very productive week at work (almost 28 billable hours), which is surprising since I was home around 4pm on Tuesday and Thursday, and left early today as well. Oh well, I'm not going to knock it. I have to bill 17 more hours before June 30th to get my end-of-year bonus ($1500), so that's pretty much in the bag. Sweet!

I spontaneously walked into Coworker Kelly's office this afternoon and said, "What should I do tonight?" which she graciously took as "How can I entertain you?" and she asked if I wanted to get dinner with her. We went to the new mexican place in Quincy Center (Acapulco's) which was really quite yummy (I had a chicken burrito, muy delicioso) and then went to a little ice cream dive in Quincy Pointe where I had chocolate peanut-butter frozen yogurt that was amazing and didn't taste at ALL like frozen yogurt. But holy crap did I overeat and I am /still/ stuffed. Burp.

I spent a little time e-mailing people from craigslist about apartments and then called an agency that told me to call back Monday. Weird. But then my brother told me that the dude that bought my great uncle's house when he died last year may be interested in buying my dad's house, too (they are next door to each other). If the house sells sooner than I expected, maybe we should just bail on Boston, baby or no baby. I'm starting to wonder if this is the wrong time for us to be TTC (or be parents in any way, given recent sad events) anyway. Which makes me incredibly dejected and gloomy.

Yeah, the one who leaves this also grieves this;
Too much rain on a prairie flood plain;
Houses floating, love is like that;
We built on the river

I'm not sure if any of this has a point. I'm feeling about as directionless as these words convey. Feh.

Comments

[estrange.livejournal.com]

What recent sad events? Did I miss something. I think you both should keep trying right now. Your best chances are when you are younger.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

No, you didn't miss anything. It isn't anything I talked about because it's not really my business to talk about it (it's largely related to someone else). But I'll leave it at this, real low-key-like: someone we know was unexpectedly pregnant and was considering having us adopt the baby, and she miscarried recently. Even though we weren't really, like, /counting/ on that baby (because it was just a possibility), I'm still really broken up about it, both for my friend and for me.

And I know chances are better when you're younger, but I also want to have my kids in a happy home.

[estrange.livejournal.com]

Wow I didn't know that. How complicated. That would be really hard. I guess you just have to think that this was the way it was meant to be. Perhaps you are meant to have a child of your own biologically?

I think that if you do get pregnant you will be much happier & excited and by the time the baby is born the hurt from the miscarriage will have faded. Keep trying - you will make excellent parents!

[indigodove.livejournal.com]

*hug*

I hope the gloom lifts. I'm here if you want someone to talk to.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

*hug* Thank you. You're sweet.

[changinglight.livejournal.com]

(((((((hugs))))))))

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Right back atcha.

[bec4joy.livejournal.com]

{{{{ HUGS }}}}

Sorry to hear about all that. Miscarriages are extremely sad. Give the Woman a hug for me too..

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I will whenever I see her again.

So how did it go? I expect a full report.