Waste

Sep. 13th, 2010 12:31 pm
judecorp: (g'nap!)
I feel like all of my best laid plans are a total waste these days. I suppose it is enhanced by today's work experience.

I put our queen-size guest bed up on freecycle last week in an effort to get it out of our house. It was [livejournal.com profile] thatpatti's bed way back (thanks, Patti!) and it has served us well... we just need to ditch the guest room. So anyway, I had a taker that swore they were coming to pick up the bed yesterday at 1:00. And of course, they didn't come. At all. All day. Didn't call, e-mail, anything. Nada. So I sat around for nothing. And the bed's not gone. And I can't do the big furniture move until it's gone. Bleh.

Today was my first day of the "doing intakes in the office" thing at work. I had four offered intake times and all four were filled. Score! First my 9:00 cancelled, then my 10:00. At 11:10, I called my 11:00 and she had forgotten and was at the grocery store. Then my 1:00 cancelled. Are you effing kidding me? I left work around 11:20 and drove home to eat lunch. Today's paycheck - $0. Today's potential paycheck - $175. OUCH.

It just feels like I'm sitting here spinning my wheels in the mud. I have this intense urge to nest and plan, but can't get rid of the bed, can't move the guest room furniture to the basement (we need someone to help and I don't have anyone), so can't move the baby furniture out of Punk's room, so can't assemble Punk's furniture, can't get the baby clothes out of boxes and put them in drawers, can't steam clean the rug, etc. etc. Get up and get ready to go to work, prepare for work, pack lunch for work, and then... do no work. It's such a waste.

I am so freaking frustrated. And broke.

Junkie

Sep. 14th, 2006 10:48 pm
judecorp: (blah!)
Now that I've done so many shots, I'm becoming a bit of a "shot snob." I definitely prefer the Follistim needles to the Ovidrel needle. The Ovidrel needle is fatter and also seems to "stick" in my skin going through, so I have to apply more pressure and there is resistance. (Maybe I have weird skin?)

All I know is that I would never be a good junkie. But it is kind of funny to have my own personal sharps container in my kitchen.

p.s. Taking a sick day tomorrow for my IUI. Awesomeness. 3 day work week this week, since Monday was our work retreat on the boat. I ended up billing almost 22 hours this week in the three days and I had 3 hours of cancellations (and would have had 3 more hours tomorrow). No wonder I have been so dead this week.
judecorp: (my sunshine)
I think that it's reprehensible to work on a Friday afternoon, so I left before 2. I got the Focus's oil changed and was home before 3, even. It's a good deal. Of course there are a million things I should do around the house, icky cat litter being one of them, so I should probably get motivated again.

This was such a waste of a work week, productivity-wise. I was there for three days and billed 12.5 hours. Coworker Funk billed 9.5. No one was around and everyone got no-showed a lot. I got stood up for my last visit of the week, but that was cool because I was dying to have lunch anyway. Mmm, lunch.

I wonder when my doctor will call about the HSG. Next week? Not knowing is going to drive me batty.
judecorp: (if only love was easy)
I had a very productive week at work (almost 28 billable hours), which is surprising since I was home around 4pm on Tuesday and Thursday, and left early today as well. Oh well, I'm not going to knock it. I have to bill 17 more hours before June 30th to get my end-of-year bonus ($1500), so that's pretty much in the bag. Sweet!

I spontaneously walked into Coworker Kelly's office this afternoon and said, "What should I do tonight?" which she graciously took as "How can I entertain you?" and she asked if I wanted to get dinner with her. We went to the new mexican place in Quincy Center (Acapulco's) which was really quite yummy (I had a chicken burrito, muy delicioso) and then went to a little ice cream dive in Quincy Pointe where I had chocolate peanut-butter frozen yogurt that was amazing and didn't taste at ALL like frozen yogurt. But holy crap did I overeat and I am /still/ stuffed. Burp.

I spent a little time e-mailing people from craigslist about apartments and then called an agency that told me to call back Monday. Weird. But then my brother told me that the dude that bought my great uncle's house when he died last year may be interested in buying my dad's house, too (they are next door to each other). If the house sells sooner than I expected, maybe we should just bail on Boston, baby or no baby. I'm starting to wonder if this is the wrong time for us to be TTC (or be parents in any way, given recent sad events) anyway. Which makes me incredibly dejected and gloomy.

Yeah, the one who leaves this also grieves this;
Too much rain on a prairie flood plain;
Houses floating, love is like that;
We built on the river


I'm not sure if any of this has a point. I'm feeling about as directionless as these words convey. Feh.
judecorp: (work poison)
Productivity-wise this day was a bust, but I got to enjoy a good deal of the spring weather, so that works for me. I'll take it, after yesterday. After a small group, I went to visit my family from last night, but they weren't home from court yet. My intern and I sat on the stoop for 30 minutes in the sunshine waiting for them to come home, and then left. We went to our next visit early and that went as planned. Then we went to our 4:00 and there was this crazy snafu nightmare so we were out of there by 4:15. I dropped Tay off at the T and headed home.

I probably spent the last 90 minutes or so sitting out on the porch downstairs getting some fresh air and catching up on your LJs. I love wireless internet, I really do. I'm looking forward to lots of eljaying on the porch. Maybe I'll let the cats out (but then they become fiends and cry all the time).

When I got home today, I had received a card from a former coworker that I had very little contact with. She worked in our nursery school and wasn't one of my co-teachers, so we spent very little time together. I'm not really sure why she wrote to me, except that she recently visited work and we said hi briefly, but it was an incredibly sweet message:

"Dear Jude,

You were on your way out as I came in to visit last week. A near miss. Anyway, just wanted to wish you well. For Candace's & EI's sake I'm glad you're still there. Seems like there's been quite a bit of transition there in the past 4 months.

Although I didn't have the good fortune to work with you directly in group, I could appreciate the patience, kindness and positivity you bring to work with you.

Best of luck,
Katherine"


So yeah, it's a little weird that she randomly wrote to me, but incredibly sweet. So even though I'm crap with the productivity lately, it's nice that people think I do a good job. (I received lots of very positive comments about my drama last night, things like, "I'm glad they have you working with them, you could handle that better than anyone," which is really good for my career self-esteem.)

It's true about the transition, though. We've lost so many staff people in the 2 years that I've been here, and there seems to be a sort of mass exodus brewing over the summer/early fall - our one PT, at least one OT (the supervisor who's been there for 7 years), one of my officemates who is a really good SW (who's been there for 2.5 years), and maybe one of the SLPs. And there could be more. It's pure craziness.

My boss is ready to stick forks in her eyes like that rapper dude.
judecorp: (radiskull)
Not a good day for sleeping, I guess. I see that [livejournal.com profile] laserkitty also did the "wake up early, can't go back to sleep" thing so I don't feel so alone. This SHOULD be a good morning to sleep because it's not sunny, but sadly, here I am and have been since about 6am. Jen had to get up at 4:30am to be at work super early for inventory (poor girl) and I haven't really been able to sleep since, but I did the toss and turn thing for a while and at least held out until 6. *yawn*

I'll probably take a shower in a few minutes and get to work early to bang out some paperwork. I'm leaving early because my [livejournal.com profile] smurfbrother is coming up to hang out and that should be a good time. I will sic Daedalus on him. Daedalus is currently sleeping at my feet. He looks so peaceful and I would love to be sleeping. Aah well.

I only have two visits today (done at 1) and my productivity is not great thanks to low group attendence. Eh. I'll start missing work for IUIs and stuff soon like a REAL slacker!

Have a great day, friends!
judecorp: (work poison)
I had three home visits after playgroup today and two of them no-showed me. That is so frustrating... it's like, okay, here I am ready to do the work and my productivity suffers anyway. Grar. I'm at 108% of quota right now so I don't have anything to worry about, but yuck. I'd rather just, you know, have all of my scheduled appointments.

I got home earlier than expected (I guess the one perk of no-shows) and after talking with Tim for a bit, have parked myself on the couch to watch Meet the Fockers from Netflix so I can send it back and get something else. It's not a stellar movie so I don't have to pay attention, which is nice.

I was supposed to have two Netflix movies but only got one. I hope it's not another missing movie. I wonder if The Movie Thief is involved. HA!

It's Survivor night. YAY! Coworker Gina and Ben are coming over, whee. :)

~//~

Funny story:

This morning I coughed so hard that I set off my gag reflex, and I threw up a little bit in the kitchen sink. I had taken my 4 honkin' Metformin XR about 10 minutes before, and two of them floated on up. I watched them, perfectly whole, fly out of my mouth and down the drain. They looked JUST like they did going down.

So I didn't know what to do - do I take two more? Do I just leave it as is? In a compromise maneuver, I took one extra. Heh, I'm even diplomatic with drugs.
judecorp: (work poison)
I take back what I said about having a 4:30 home visit. It just got cancelled, yo!

Cancellations - bad for productivity, good for slacking off.

The question is - do I go back to the office and use the time to take care of some paperwork, or just kick it at home and consider it a freebie?
judecorp: (soap poisoning)
I'm fighting off a cold right now.

That's what my Boss tells us to say. I guess it's some sort of "Power of Positive Thinking" crap, somehow more empowering to say than "I think I'm coming down with something." She has some sort of belief that if we /say/ we're fighting something off, we won't get sick. Really, I think she doesn't ever want us to miss work. What should she care, she left for a week in St. John today. Lucky.

I have a killer headache but that didn't stop me from talking to Wink for nearly an hour this evening, a conversation sparked because he cracked me up in his recent e-mail about spotting The Shat (W. Shatner) somewhere in town. (He's in LA. Ooh la la.) I do believe it was the sentence, "Or should I say, 'Shat myself?'" that did me in. I'm so easily amused.

It was Two-Kid Wednesday so I actually managed to pound through a significant amount of work on my desk /and/ file two weeks' worth of progress notes. I consider this a huge accomplishment, even if freeing all of this time up was disastrous to the Productivity thing. Aah well, I'm sure last week will cover it.

You know, I really wish love was easy. I don't know how anyone does it. Personally, I don't know if I'm coming or going most days. I can wake up in the morning on the wrong side of the bed and immediately get into a tizzy over something she's done or said, and ten minutes later when I'm still feeling down about it, all I want is to crawl into her arms. There's something mildly /wrong/ about that. How can I want comfort from the person who caused me to want comfort? Love, you're a crazy beast.

I really hope a time comes, and soon, when things settle down around us and we can go back to being Crazy In Love again. Those were good times, and I miss them. There's nothing quite like falling in love, and all of the living together and daily life stuff just messes with that in a lot of ways. Whatever happened to wanting to hold onto every moment and devote every ounce of energy to falling in love? I would like to bottle some of that and sip it every time Real Life tries to get in the way of my love affair.

I just want to go back to those wild and crazy, carefree, nutty-in-love days:

judejenblah

How do those of you in Long Term Loves keep that courtship spark? I'm all ears.
judecorp: (keep going)
I billed over 34 hours this week when I'm supposed to shoot for 24. Wow. No /wonder/ I've been such a freaking basket case.

*dies*
judecorp: (work poison)
This is officially No Productivity week for me. The last two weeks have been really good because I've been stockpiling other people's assessments, but now that the assessments are slowing down, I suppose it's apparent that I don't have many families right now. I guess I need to get some more. I've been a case-closing machine!

I drove all the way to Dudley Square to someone's house for them to tell me that they forgot I was coming and they are going to the daughter's dentist appointment. Whups. I didn't need that time or anything.

I went to Lambert's instead and splurged on tons and tons of fresh fruit and vegetables. Having the bottom drawers of the fridge jam-packed only reinforces how painfully empty the rest of the fridge is. Yowch. We sure do need some groceries. Where does the time go? Maybe we can go late tonight or something.

I am going to meet with some train collector dude about my dad's trains on Saturday morning. Then maybe I can make a pitstop at a high school friend's surprise 30th birthday party (it starts at noon - who starts a freaking surprise party at noon?) really quickly before I take a million pictures of the truck and snowplow to post it to craigslist. Or something.

Someday, my wife and I will spend some quality time together.
judecorp: (keep going)
Also, I billed 9.5 hours today. And that was /with/ one cancellation! I was ON FIRE with the productivity today, oh yeah. 21.25 hours in 3 days (quota is 24 for a 5-day workweek), and 5 (possibly 6) scheduled for tomorrow.

DEAR GODS, NO WONDER I AM A CRAZY PERSON.

~//~

In other news, I had some Diet Coke with dinner tonight. We don't really do caffeine anymore and I have a strict "no caffeine after lunch" policy (because I'm sensitive to it, big time). NO SLEEP FOR ME.
judecorp: (don't feel so alone)
Okay, so two totally cool things happened at work today:
1. Since I've been a totally stressed-out space cadet for the past couple of days weeks months, I managed to schedule an assessment with a family today but forgot to post it on the assessment board to get two helpers. (We have to bring three people on an assessment.) I realized this at 12:45pm (it was a 1:00 assessment) when I couldn't remember who was doing the assessment with me and couldn't find the slip. By 1:00pm, with a little batting of the eyelashes, I had two people to take with me and we were out the door!

2. One of the people I conned into coming with was one of our new hires (we have 4 people starting in the next couple of weeks) and she is totally a lesbian. YAY, I'm no longer the Lone Queer at work!


Also, I am so excited that I worked like a dog up until today so I could flex tomorrow off to take Grandma to the casino! Hooray for days off without having to use vacation time! I billed 26 hours in 4 days!
judecorp: (meow)
I survived my 11-hour day today, even though when I woke up I was really feeling "off." I'm a little bummed because one of my visits cancelled, and my assessment didn't last nearly as long as I wanted it to, so my big 8 hour productivity is instead more like 6.5. Poo. I like being the Productivity Queen.

When the weather is nice I don't really mind driving around, but it's really inconvenient when you have to go to the bathroom. There are some families whose bathrooms you just don't want to pee in, so then I have to run back to work or back home or something so I can relieve myself. More than you wanted to know, I know. I love to pee.

The other day I told Jen that I ate Daedalus, and that I went out and got a replacement cat that looked just like Daedalus. For the last couple of days I've been referring to him as "NewDaedalus." I crack myself up!

I wonder what NewDaedalus is doing right now.
judecorp: (least resistance)
Also, the financial situation is much happier now that I got my bonus at work. The sad thing is that I only got the half-bonus.

(Backstory: My work offers a $2000 bonus each year if you make 100% of productivity. Since I started this job after the start of the fiscal year, I was eligible for a half-bonus if I made productivity for the second half of the fiscal year. But see, I started only 2.5 WEEKS after the start of the fiscal year... and pretty much had a full caseload built up a month after that. So I thought that if I hustled I could catch up to my coworkers and get the full bonus. At first I thought it wasn't possible, but then the day I got married, rght when I was leaving work to head for City Hall, my supervisor pulled me aside to let me know that I was really close to catching up, and if I pulled about 24 hours/week (I'd been billing between 23 and 28 on average) until the end of the fiscal year I was going to get the BLING.)

We needed 1040 hours from July 1, 2004 to June 30, 2005. (20 hours/week for 52 weeks) I ended the fiscal year with 1024. Sixteen hours short! Less than one week of work!

I lost an unexpected week of work when my dad died.

Dang. Dang it all.

I mean, sure, I still got $1000 (before taxes, so I ended up with significantly less)... but that was one expensive week off.)

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