Where does the time go?

[judecorp]

I really don't understand how mayna can manage to post and comment so much. Her baby is one week old! My kid will be four weeks old on Sunday and I don't feel like I have time to do anything other than clean bottles, do laundry, and try to stuff food in my face whenever I can. And if I ever have to leave the house to run an errand or something, forget it. All bets are off.

I had my postpartum checkup today and it was good to see The Midwife I Love, especially since she was so sweet and supportive about our nursing woes. She told me to "throw away all of the teas and tinctures" and stop beating myself up for low supply. I'm working on it, but it was nice to know that my hippie midwife was like, "It happens. Some people don't make much/any milk," and didn't give me any more pumping schedules or "helpful tips."

My mom and John (her husband) are in RI overnight visiting friends. It is so quiet here without people in the house, but I had to do my own dishes. Bummer. What am I going to do on Sunday when she leaves for real? I am comfortable with my mom doing chores around the house but I feel weird about the idea of Jen's parents cleaning my house. I guess it's because they're not my parents. *shrug* Hopefully I can get over it.

Jen put up some cute pictures on her Flickr account. Yay!

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[keelamonster.livejournal.com]

I remember when Ella was so wee and I felt like I couldn't do anything but sit with her and watch her. I was afraid something would happen and I wouldn't get to see it. And don't worry, it's hard to let go sometimes of that control, and it's always easier when it's someone you know and love (like your own mom) than it is when it's someone that you didn't so much choose (like an in-law with whom you have to get along because you love your wife). It's okay to feel freaked out about it, just don't let it get in the way of enjoying the time when they're there, and don't let it get in the way of letting them love that grandbaby.

Here's the awesome thing about kids: you get to learn to give up control. Because there is none with babies and kids. I mean, sure you get some control, but really? The people who have to be in control wind up really being overbearing with their kids. Of course, we give our kids guidance and we give them boundaries and we know what's right and what's wrong and we teach our kid those things, but the truth is that there is no real control. And you usually have to learn those things the hard way (like you did with your whole nursing saga). And when you finally relax and let go and realize that you can't control everything when it comes to your kids, you start to feel like not being in total control elsewhere isn't so scary. Know what I mean?

Anyway, you're posting plenty and your baby is freaking gorgeous, just like her mommies. And if you can't get anything else done and the dishes sit in the sink for a while, who cares? She's only this age once. So enjoy the hell out of her and do the dishes later when she's sleeping.

And keep posting pictures, because I show them to Ella and she says "baby!" and thinks that one day it'd be cool to meet August.