judecorp: (olivia & alex)
We have been on a cleaning rampage for most of the day in preparation for a little birthday party that my smoochie is throwing, ostensibly for me but I maintain that it is for us. While it's nice to have something totally planned for me, to sort of... leave out her birthday entirely doesn't sit well with me. I am making her add her name to the cake. Hey, it's her birthday, too! (Or was. You know.) I just want someone to take over the planning sometimes!

Anyway, the cleaning. I did the bathroom, kitchen, and bedroom all before 11am. Because I am a cleaning god. We got the 80 tons of cat fur off the floors and Jen even did some cursory dusting of the tv/components. Jen even vacuumed the couch and the papa-san. The cats settled on both /immediately/. Those little ingrates. They also love to christen newly-cleaned litter boxes.

This week we find out whether we were successful in our baby-making endeavors or whether a conversation about IVF is in our future. I'd really prefer the former, truth be told. I think I have the stamina to pull off an IVF journey but I'd really need Jen to be on-board and actively involved way more than ever before. And if that's not something she thinks she can do... well, that's cool. But I won't do it even largely on my own. The IUIs, sure, but not the Big Guns. Too much rollercoaster. Too many medications. Too long a process.

Of course, if we ARE unsuccessful this time around, I will gorge myself silly on expensive sushi of the deliciously raw variety and lift a lot of heavy boxes in the name of moving. And drink diet soda with reckless abandon for the duration of any break we may take.

~//~

Holy crap, we're having a house inspection on Monday. If all goes well, we might have to actually *gulp* give notice to our sweetheart landlords.
judecorp: (trapped)
Ugh. Nothing like a nightmare to point out your flaws.

I had a terrible dream this morning that for whatever reason I was in this really fundamental church (no, that wasn't the nightmare) that has popped up in my dreams before. And then Jen joined me there and we were watching a movie. I can't remember which movie now, but it had a "message." So then the movie ends and we decide to head out of there (actually, I think this was a decent part of the dream because I think we were walking on the "grounds" of the church and started kissing and decided to, erm, head home). So we walk around to the front and even though this church has these GORGEOUS grounds in the back, the front is apparent that the church is in a really really bad neighborhood.

So we walk to the car and I realize that someone has pulled our gas door off. And then I realize that the whole car has been vandalized!!! The mirrors are broken off, the door panels are all trashed, etc. And I freak out right there on the street, in the middle of this bad neighborhood... and during my freak-out some big guy opens my back door and for whatever reason I totally sass at him and then he throws a handful of guns into the backseat of my car! I woke up with my heart in my throat and was too hyped up to really go back to sleep (that and I had to pee really badly).

Nothing like a little dream to remind me that I'm a) naive and b) a little materialistic.
judecorp: (mini me)
On Saturday, I bought a slush puppie at the convenience store. Blue raspberry flavor. I love anything blue flavored. Well, it was a LOT sweeter than what I am used to these days (since I gave up soda and then artificial sweeteners, all I drink is water and seltzer) and I can only handle a little bit at a time. So I've been enjoying my slush puppie every day since! And there's still more delicious slush puppie in the freezer for probably the next two days. YUMMMMMM.

Also at the convenience store, we bought $4 in scratch tickets. Jen won $5 on hers. (I never win.) So we brought them back for $5 in scratch tickets. I won $1. And Jen won $30 on one ticket and like $5 on the others! She is a scratch ticket stud! I wish I could be lucky like that.

[livejournal.com profile] calledmara was in my dream last night. We were all gussied up cute and were walking through a neighborhood hopping fences and stuff. But then I was supposed to meet Former Coworker Gina (who moved to Kentucky) to discuss an internship she was supposed to be setting up for me. And I called her to see where she wanted to meet exactly and she told me she wasn't coming and didn't think she wanted to find me an internship. When the alarm went off, I woke up in the middle of screaming at her on the cell phone about how she was going to make me fail out of school!

Welcome to the luteal phase. The ridiculous dreams have begun.
judecorp: (rubber duckie)
While I haven't stopped my trend of getting crap sleep, I have added the extra bonus of crazy dreams in the morning before I wake up. This sucks because I wake up kind of flustered which makes it impossible to go back to sleep.

Yesterday morning I woke up to some wacky, intense dream about Coworker Gina and her husband, Ben. I wanted to tell her all about it at work yesterday but I didn't see her, and by the time I saw her this morning, I didn't remember.

This morning I had a very vivid, and pretty scary, dream about a psychostalker type. By the time I woke up the scary parts were over, but whatever it was that caused me to wake up (I don't remember anymore) must have been a doozy because my heart was pounding. My BBT was 98.6 which is a HUGE jump from what it has been (it's been in the high 97s for the previous 4 mornings). I wonder, do scary dreams and elevated heart rates raise temps? I guess I'll see what it is tomorrow.

I'm having a little better productivity this week, which is nice as it makes the days go by a little faster, but the 2ww is killing me. It doesn't seem to be bothering Jen like it is me. I'm happy for her but kind of sad for me, because I need someone to commiserate with in person outside of all of those TTC boards. Oh well, I suppose the Universe is telling me to learn some patience.

Daedalus is snuggling up against me and that is the cutest thing ever. I have such an unholy love for that kittycat. <3 <3 <3

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