Weepy

[judecorp]

I really need to stop shooting myself in the gut with hormones. For real. I am so weepy!

This morning, I got weepy at (no lie) the final episode of Real World: Key West. And then I got weepy while watching a back episode of Cheerleader Nation on Lifetime where this one girl (Ashley) gets weepy talking about how self-conscious she is and how much she loves her friends. And I also got weepy at some e-mails I've been getting. And the cheesiest songs on the radio will set me off also. And a friend wrote on LJ about his visit to Auschwitz and I was a total mess.

I know that injects are less crazy-provoking than Clomid (thank goodness), and I don't have that "I am not in control of my life" feeling I had going on with Clomid... just general weepiness. I'm sure it's a combination of the hormones and the pressure of the process, but still... annoying.

Maybe I should stop with the Metformin and let my testosterone go back up so I can go back to being the strong boy that everyone liked. Word.

Comments

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yes, I have noticed a whole gamut of emotions at all different times in the cycle. It has been fascinating to do this little experiment if only for a little peek into "how the other half lives." I did not get a cycle for 3 years thanks to PCOS and testosterone... and before that would cycle very randomly and rarely. I was an incredibly even-keel person, the Buddha would have been proud. ;)

Now I notice that there are times in my cycle when the smallest things will become big things, and I just get angry very easily. I don't particularly like it. I tried taking BCPs for a little while in my late teens/early 20s because a doctor told me it was good to regulate my cycle. I took three different kinds of those triphasic pills and they all gave me anger issues... so I guess that's where my emotions go.

Isn't weird how some random chemicals can change your perceptions about ANYTHING? Even trash tv?

p.s. Has anyone ever suggested laparoscopic surgery for your endometriosis?

[snack.livejournal.com]

nods - i did the surgery when i was 21. doc said it shouldn't grow back. a year after the surgery i was still in pain. so i started taking the pills straight through to skip the period on my own. a new doc agreed with my decision. so i took them straight through on and off, having an occassional period. pain. after a while i just never stopped taking them.

the periods weren't that bad once i came off. my cycles are crazy weird now though. :)

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Ugh, what a pain (literally). Does not having cycles mess with you in any way? :)