Shower!

[judecorp]

I took a shower today. It's a beautiful thing and I feel like a human today. I hadn't showered since the whole bleeding thing because I was scared to stand up too long, but it was fine.

It's weird to live life in fear, because that's not my way. But I am so paranoid that I have either lost my baby already or are going to shortly. It's really all I can think about. Tuesday cannot come soon enough so I can know one way or another.

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[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

I know what it feels like to be scared to stand up. I get it, my friend. Hang in there.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I am working on hanging in. I have never been so eager for news and so scared for it at the same time.

[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

I know that feeling too.


But you know what - I have such a strong feeling that it will all be okay. The baby that is still with you is strong strong strong- and here to stay.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

I really want that to be true. I honestly don't know how I will pull through if I lose both babies. Especially if another loss happens without my knowing it.

I am visualizing and praying for a healthy, sticky baby. It has to come true. It just HAS to.