Shower!

[judecorp]

I took a shower today. It's a beautiful thing and I feel like a human today. I hadn't showered since the whole bleeding thing because I was scared to stand up too long, but it was fine.

It's weird to live life in fear, because that's not my way. But I am so paranoid that I have either lost my baby already or are going to shortly. It's really all I can think about. Tuesday cannot come soon enough so I can know one way or another.

Comments

[kathrynt.livejournal.com]

Hi. I found you from your sig link on FF. I suffered through 2 very early miscarriages (neither made it to a heartbeat) before carrying my daughter Lillian to term; it's not comparable, nothing is, each person's pain stands alone. But I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you and if it's OK I'll light a candle for Baby B tonight. I could go on about "blah blah vanishing twins are common" this and "chances are excellent" that but really, it doesn't mean a damn thing; all that matters is what's going to happen here, now, with this baby. So best of love and luck and light to you, and I hope things go well.

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Thank you for everything. Please do light a candle for our family. We have our next scan tomorrow and we are desperate for good news. Thank you for thinking of us. We appreciate it.