Weepy

[judecorp]

I really need to stop shooting myself in the gut with hormones. For real. I am so weepy!

This morning, I got weepy at (no lie) the final episode of Real World: Key West. And then I got weepy while watching a back episode of Cheerleader Nation on Lifetime where this one girl (Ashley) gets weepy talking about how self-conscious she is and how much she loves her friends. And I also got weepy at some e-mails I've been getting. And the cheesiest songs on the radio will set me off also. And a friend wrote on LJ about his visit to Auschwitz and I was a total mess.

I know that injects are less crazy-provoking than Clomid (thank goodness), and I don't have that "I am not in control of my life" feeling I had going on with Clomid... just general weepiness. I'm sure it's a combination of the hormones and the pressure of the process, but still... annoying.

Maybe I should stop with the Metformin and let my testosterone go back up so I can go back to being the strong boy that everyone liked. Word.

Comments

[tea-soaked.livejournal.com]

Hormones are funny.

I took clomid once - it did nothing for me at all in terms of fertility - but I did feel like shit when I was on it. I was headachey and pissy and forgetful. The puregon works for me in terms of fertility but doesn't make me feel all pissy. Although I've never been on 100 units. 50 the first time. 75 the second time.

Hang in there.

We are making eggs!

[judecorp.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I am hanging in. The dreaded e-mail exchange did little to help the weepiness but I have just had this general heaviness going on beneath my eyelids and it doesn't take much to let it go. I told my coworkers at Movie Club last night that I cried at the Real World and my officemate, a Real World fan, nearly fell off her chair but then kindly asked if I'd at least watched the whole season and had some investment in the characters. Snort!

I think the weepiness is not really about the FSH itself but about estrogen. So hopefully it means I am growing some exciting-looking eggs in there and my estrogen is popping up.

The first two times I took Clomid, I had one mature follicle and one semi-mature each time, a couple of days earlier than I would have O'd on my own. The third time, it didn't do anything and I had my same old O around CD23, and they cancelled my IUI. I was devastated. And I hate Clomid, although it is a blessing for a lot of people.

Last time I took Follistim, I took 75 units for the first 7 days, then 125 units for 3 days. I'm hoping that they will up it sooner because I would like to have more follicles. (Last month I had 2.) If I have another BFN cycle, I am going to ask to start up a little higher and maybe get some more targets in there for our last chance.